EDIT: I was meant to come back and fix this post, I tried but the html got so outa wack I can't even tell what it used to say. Oh well.
Fk this shit! I'm supposed to be speed cleaning but I thought I should blast out a post while it's still early and I have energy. I've already missed documenting so many important moments of 2013. Yep it's a whole new year and a month a half almost have slipped by and of course I haven't found the time to post =P
So far lots has happened and it's been a fucking great year so far! Seriously I wave on a wave of happy days when the new year kicked in, I was still working and finishing up on my rotation of the newgrad program. Seriously that ward was amazing, the people were fantastic and I really felt like part of the team and valued. I learnt a lot and my skills shot up, people were superrr nice and christmas only helped consolidate that. I feel ridiculously lucky to have gotten the chance to ease into nursing with such a supportive NUM(nursing unit manager) and such a great, drama free group of nurses. That's rare and I would go back in a heart beat. I loved that I was finally in a place where my body was used to the hours, I wasn't so drained which meant I had the energy to have a full social life outside of work and I was confident enough that patients liked me and I got used to talking to people. That's been one of the big challenges I guess, learning to talk to patients and relatives comfortably when they're people I've never met before. Learning not to be awkward when your doing such personal care with your patients and being able to joke around and brighten their mood. The people there were just so great to work with <3 a="" and="" back="" be="" br="" but="" considering="" drowning="" ends...although="" feel="" going="" hasty="" i="" in="" it="" later.="" like="" little="" m="" might="" miss="" more="" much="" my="" new="" on="" once="" rotation="" so="" that="" there="" to="" totally="" ward="">
The first few weeks of January were fantastic and they usually tend to be what with the Sydney Festival going on and lots of events on around. New years itself was even pretty fun, I was working till late new years eve and I really didn't think I would be able to party because I had a morning shift starting at 7am new years day, but someone asked me to swap the day b4 <3 1:30pm="" a="" and="" another="" anything="" around="" at="" bbq="" be="" being="" bit="" br="" bringing="" but="" call="" consists="" days="" decision="" didn="" do="" ended="" family="" for="" got="" grandma.="" happy="" home="" husband="" i="" in="" instead.="" it.="" it="" just="" kurt="" last="" lot="" love="" marko="" minute="" most.="" mounties="" mum="" mums="" my="" nbsp="" new="" of="" people="" quite="" s="" so="" special.="" start="" t="" that="" the="" then="" there="" these="" till="" tiny="" to="" up="" was="" we="" well="" went="" what="" when="" which="" wierd="" with="" worth="" year="" you="">That first weekend of Jan was fucking awesome, I ended up at a street warehouse party which fucked with my mind a little. It just boggles me how something so creative and awesome exists in Sydney and we're just so devoid of anything that artistically driven out here in the West. It totally made me want to move out to newtown/marrickville/petersham some more. The next day was the Sydney Festival with Joel which is always brilliant, got sloshed, met and danced with awesome people and stayed at a backpacker hostel at the cross xD
Managed to get out to the beach with most of the girls and my guys <3 br="" fucking="" i="" love="" wattamolla="">I met Ash <3 a="" about="" boys="" but...he="" dislike="" few="" going="" here="" him...i="" him="" hours="D<br" i="" in="" kind="" kool="" like="" m="" of="" really="" s="" see="" to="" writting="">Met a bunch of people from Macquarie uni, watched a couple films, saw that The Village at Mac is decked out compared to other uni's o.o
Twirled some poi!
Hung with tim a lot, and jamie and courtney and Kianie too ^.^
Ended up at Stonewall twice in once week
Tarin had her engagement party <3 22="" and="" br="" day="" first="" i="" icu.="" in="" my="" started="" turned="">
Now my first week of ICU is complete and I dealt okay, the stress was getting to me but I did what I do best, and burried my head in the sand and distracted myself with people. I'm so glad my feelings for Ash have been so intense, otherwise my mind would have soley been concentrated on how scared I am, how incompetent I feel, how much I don't fucking know and how sick all the patients are. Everything is 100% different, from the way the staff treat each other, to the layout, the policy, even the way drugs are administered, the way doctors attend to patients and the type of assessments I'm expected to do, and all the machines! GAH
I mean, I've learnt something new every day but fuck. It's scary and I don't know what the fuck I'm doing. I've had several moments where I just wanted to quite, want to ask to be moved to a ward instead, somewhere less specialised and less scary, but I can't. All that I'm thinking is that it's just 6 months, and who knows, maybe it's just this first month or so that I'm dying. I was just super lucky on my last placement that everything was so basic.
On another note, I feel old as fuck. 22 is OLD. I should be a fully fledged responsible adult by now. I still don't drive and I still don't have my own place and I probably wont for a long time because I'm saving money by staying here but it really bugs me, living with my family. I just want to get away really, have my own place where I can invite who I want over without feeling like I'm bothering everyone and making my guests feel awkward that my parents are around. It's lame.
Anyway I should go speed clean.
But yes, it's been a great start to the year and I can tell this year is going to be a good one for me. Once newgrad is done in august I'm going to Chile BITCHES. And a few other places but I haven't figured it out yet. EEK i need to do my passport! I said I would do it this week...but no. I'll go after work on Monday maybe.
Anyway see you <3 br="">
