Title: Happy New Anus
In spanish if you forget to put the squiggly accent on the word year, it reads as Happy new anus instead of Happy new year:
Correct: Feliz Año Nuevo
Incorrect: Feliz ano nuevo
Big difference.
So time is almost up for the first day of the year, what did you do? Was it as anticlimactic and depressing as most programmed events tend to be? At one point today I found myself walking the streets of Cabramatta alone with a snow cone while still slightly off my face. It did not feel like a good start to the year. Mind you I didn't get home until about 6pm today but it was not a pleasant welcoming of the new year. I started off at Kurt's place before midnight and had a semi-heart shattering encounter with Tim there, then I went back to my place for a family BBQ where I heralded in the new year standing alone in my backyard thinking of none other than Tim. It's not pleasant breaking up right before new years lol. On the plus side we Skyped for awhile, it felt normal again ♥ despite the arguing and constant reminders that we are no longer a couple. It made me feel better talking to him even if we still remain apart. Then I went back to Kurt's place and everything is a long blur from then until about 6pm today.
I've spent a lot of time colouring in since breaking up with Tim, I have all this free time and I feel really wierd, like...wtf am I supposed to be doing, normally Tim and I would team up and be bored together. As shitty as that sounds, being bored with someone else is still better than being bored and alone. I've been resisting the urge to call him all day, just to mindlessly chat like we used to and eventually end up ignoring each other over the phone. BUT IT WAS NICE. and now I miss it. I'm realising all the things that have been left undone with each other and what this means in terms of changes. It sucks ass. Either way everything is completely up in the air until he comes back from the beach. I still don't even know if we can realistically continue to hang out and go to the gym everyday like we had been doing recently. He says we can but...who knows, that's a lot to ask of a recently broken up couple.
Blah im getting all wrapped up in this breakup bullshit. I came here to try and do a summary post. SO I've decided to do it month by month:
January:Started off the year with a little party at my place and brought in the new year with Peter crashing at my place for a little while.
Soon after we all hung out with Nghi...that was an odd outing, we went to a park and then Ikea, randomest group of people too. Tim was at the beach with his family =(
That trip was the first time I hung out with Nghi and the first time he met Stef and a cute little friendship blossomed.
OH me and Joel went to the Sydney Festival! You know looking back on that, that was possibly the highlight of the year for me, I had SO much fucking amazing fun, I felt like my spirit was flying above everything that was happening. I was so far out and I wasn't even drunk!
Tim came back from the road trip and got me a few trinkets ♥ and there was a pretty random outing with my dance group + Alyssa
Oh Stef's (not really so) surprise birthday outting! We took her to Wattamolla and then we went and ate at Hogs Breath.
Tim and I tried a class of mixed martial arts, lol i almost died and we never went back
Salsa club with aly and miche haha how random
-okay I give up chronicling every outing. Maybe I'll do the bigger stuff :S
I went to Jervis Bay with Kurt!
OMG i totally forgot that we went and saw Amanda Palmer and Neil Gaiman for Australia Day
LOL we snuck into the Raggamuffin festival with Joel and Kurt haha I forgot about that too.
Movies..random lunches..
February:Ugh my fail of a birthday and house sitting for Joel
LOL tim me stef nghi and robert attempted to play tennis one time..first and last time haha
I went to my first hens night
Disappointing and depressing vday...I put so much effort into that too =.=
OHHHH Friday 18th Feb, that's when we went on that not-so-great roadtrip to Forster with warren, jamie, kianie, rachel, lizzy, tim, jim and sean. MESSSY stuff people.
Huh so I did go to uni...i don't remember at all.
Oh I did a live sound production course at Hyland road.
Oh and the Stopmotion workshop...man I TOTALLY even forgot about that, that was mindnumbing.
1 year anniversary of Alex's death =(
I saw a lot more of Peter the first half of the year, he dissapeared the 2nd half =.=
I was going to dancing every Sunday
March:Sonjae's bday haha and the awkwardness with Mike
A failed St Patties Day parade
Kurt's Pash Party
Mum was in Hospital
We saw the John Pilger doco!
April:still occasional rock climbing sessions for tim where I would just watch lol
Shortcuts film festival!
finished up the workshops and had Bring It On! Fest. (pretty fail)
Lol this was around when I got it in for Christina because there was this odd flirty relationship with Tim haha
Aly's 20th at cargo bar with Rowan o.O and Michelle finally brought Andrew along!
Rio in 3D. I almost came. It was AMAZING.
I tried indian food for the first time
May:The doctor who weekend sessions started after dancing usually
gross...I started my first clinical prac I had in over a year. Stressful, shitty times that I could not have endured had I not had Tim supporting me all the way.
ergh all mornings, it was excruciating.
Anything Goes Cabaret bullshit.
preparing for Tim's 21st and then executing it. Not bad.
I made my first set of AWESOME cupcakes
June:Kurts 21st and the vomit explosion, Tim really proved he loved me that night haha
Comic Strip with jamie and dani + others, it was AWESOME, best burlesque ive seen in syd so far.
I had my interview for the job in mental health and me and tim spent a lot of time discussion the upcoming snow trip.
Nat and Warren's 21st, not a pleasant night, warren broke his leg and now no one talks to Tilbrook.
Tim ended his semester with a burlesque night with me and stef and his uni buddies
July:SNOW trip...painful and really tested my mental endurance haha
hmm we ate out a lot this year, there's heaps of restaurants we tried for the first time and a bunch of movies we saw at the cinema
lol i accidentally threw away about $60 of brand new music equipment into the rubbish bin
GANGSHOW haha mikel dances silly
Orientation for that mental health job!
We attempted to create and film a movie in one arvo, did not happen
Mum got into a pretty big car accident
Matt's 20th! that was a fun night, I went to star city and the cross for the first time (properly)
A magical arvo with tim in the botanical gardens
August:more eating out and hanging out at tims place
Our LAST dance performace before our group broke up
me tim and uly started going to the gym together
my first work shift in mental health!
Gay clubbing at Arq! and losing my phone in maroubra! blah...mikel really showed me he was a good friend that night
Wildfire restaurant and the 4 seasons when my dad came by from Singapore
September:My newgrad interview
ergh the first Bridal fitting for my mum
Dylan Moran with stef and tim!
Helping tim with his assessments
Magic the Gathering showed up in our lives =.=
My cardiac prac started, all arvo's, it was really pleasant.
Jamies wicked 22nd birthday party
Chilean Fest with the guys
Warren's wedding!
October:Andrews 21st!
Nghi's 21st clubbing, the first time me and tim ever staying in a hotel together..lol he was also spewing the whole time haha
3D motherfucking lion king! THE BEST SHIT OUT
This is around when stuff getting boring...I don't know why, hanging out with tim wasn't as much fun anymore coz we were both so friggen stressed out
Angels 21st, mikels 21st, doros 21st, Halloween parties, mums wedding, fucking retardedly stressful month.
November:Lady Smith Black Mambazo
a lot of working
a lot of tim always busy
the prac im currently on started...holy shit, novemeber sounds so far away when it's jan right now.
So i met charles I guess, he drives me to prac and home =D
less and less time with tim, me more and more unhappy
December;Im still on prac so I'm seeing the boys if im lucky and tim on the weekend usually but barely.
Nat's tea party
Gym with warren and tim started
xmas lights with tim and jamie & co
once my break from prac started there was a LOT of eating out and gyming.
xmas eve eve dinner at uly's place
Watched Happy Feet 2 on xmas and then went to a house party at one of tims friends places.
This is terrible i cant even remember what I did this week and I didnt write it in my diary. I'm screwed, there's no way I'll remember lol.
Sorry for the longest post ever, it's just to clear my head. This has really helped actually, I can pinpoint when things started to go wierd with me and tim...I really think it was just the changing circumstances we were in that made things harder. I think we can fix us...I'm hoping at least =(
