Heyyy
I'm bored. I'm at the 4 seasons in Sydney right now...stuck. My dad came to Aus from Singapore yesterday so we met up for dinner at Wildfire and then I crashed here, in the hotel he's staying tonight. He leaves later today for some buisnessy things but it was nice seeing him. The last time I saw him was dec of 2008 when I visited him in Singapore but it was good chatting to him, realising how much I've changed since highschool ended.
He's asleep right now and for some reason I woke up at 5:30 am despite going to bed at about 3am. Couldn't focus on sleep and being awake in a dark room with nothing to do for 4 hours was making me insane. I lost my phone Friday night so I guess I'm just in withdrawl. I'm so used to constantly having some sort of outside mental stimulation at all times that I'm going nuts right now. I can't listen to music, podcasts, go on facebook (efficiently), check public transport times, look up maps, write blogs, watch youtube, watch my lectures that I missed, play bejweled, take photos and videos, look up reviews. KSHjSKLJDLKJDMX
I spend an immense amount of time in public transport or waiting around for things to begin and i NEED distractions. I can't be in my own head unless I have the means to outwardly express it through writing. Then this morning the more I thought about not having the phone the more anxious I became so I got out of bed and sat in the bath tub reading 'luxury' travel magazines and tourist books on Aus. Do you know how mind numbing that is! The bathroom is the only place with light but wont wake my dad. By 8am i was getting desperate and considering taking a bath o.O If you know me, you would know that I hate baths, I find them pretty disgusting and I don't like hotel/public/gym bathrooms. I talked myself out of it and opted for a shower instead, hoping that when I was done dad would be awake. But no =(
He did however give me his laptop password half asleep so here I am.
With a shitty laptop that won't even load fb games. *sigh* and I have no headphones to watch videos =(
SO, instead, here is a quizz thingo from sonjae's blog:
Ten Things I Wish I Could Say to Ten Different People: (but don't say their name)
..lol I don't think I even talk to 10 different people regularly, or have that much that has been left unsaid..hmm.
1. It's time to kick your butt into gear before you fall in deeper
2. Stop being so self-destructive just to please your 'friends'
3. Stop being a bitch you dumb slut
4. Do you realise that you are really passive agressive towards me, it's really awkward. Normally I would talk to you about it and resolve your issues with me if we were friends and saw each other often, but we're not and we don't so I'm not bothered.
5. Stop being homophobic, I used to make concessions for your attitude due to the circumstances you were in but we're playing a whole different ball game now. Hate in your heart is bad for your soul.
6. I'm sorta sorry that I don't ask you how things are going in your life, but only because I know that's what a friend is supposed to do. Thing is, I'm not bothered making the effort to get you to open up. I tell you my stuff so if you want to tell me something personal you have to make the first move.
7. Stop pretending you aren't a slut, embrace it.
8. I kinda miss having you around, pay attention to meeeee
9. I'm sorry I fucked with your head and heart.
10. Yeah...I really don't want to be your friend, I know I made the right choice. I don't hate you, I just don't like your personality, it irritates me. There's no reason why I should make myself put up with you.
Nine things about myself:
1. I've been playing with the idea of opening up my own cafe/cupcakery. I will not do this.
2. I like snacking on raw tomatoes like as if they were apples.
3. When I was 16 I was in Toys R Us and came across the baby section and started pretending to be pregnant in the hopes that the adults around would judge me harshley for being a teen MOM lol...it's ridiculous how much of a rush it was getting dirties from 40 year old uptight ladies.
4. I can get really creepy stalker crazy...like film you when you're not looking freaky.
5. There are parts of me that are yearning to let loose and go 'crazy' but I know I will hurt people close to me if I do.
6. Bite my neck or kiss my along my shoulders and I will be yours
7. I like the feeling of sore abs but can't handle the pain of working out my thighs
8. I plan on graduating by the end of feb next year
9. I start making wierd noises and having random outlod dialoges with myself when I'm alone and completely comfortable/unaware of anything
Eight ways to win my heart:
1. Play an instrument well for me
2. Sing to
me (well)
3. Say out loud all the things I'm thinking but don't want to say outloud because I don't want to hurt anyones feelings
4. Dance with me, sweep me away and make it flow
5. Notice things that others don't about me.
6. Having the ability to make me laugh or feel better when I'm down
7. Be inspiring
8. Let me feel like you aren't judging me, so that I can be free.
Seven things that cross my mind a lot:
1. When I'm bored, I get pretty fixated on Tim and where he is and what he's doing in the hopes that he can take me away.
2. Am I forgetting something?
3. Don't look awkward
4. Ergh why did I speak.
5. Are they looking at me funny? O.O
6. I'm not ready!
7. What if something goes wrong?
Six things I do before I fall asleep
1. Check facebook
2. listen to podcasts
3. Play bejweled
4. Update Pink Pad
5. Think about what I need to do tomorrow
6. Occasionally, blog about my day in my other blog
Five people who mean a lot: (in alpabetical order)
1. Joel
2. Kurt
3. Matt
4. Mikel
5. Tim
Four things you're wearing right now:
1. Jeans
2. belt
3. bra
4. panties
Three songs that you listen to often:
not sure..lately:
1. Tim Minchin - Not perfect
2. Beyonce- girls
3. dubstep playlist
Two things you want to do before you die:
1. fully explore the magical world of sexuality
2. be good at something
One confession:
1. I dream about one day being confident enough and prepared enough to perform at Hellfire.
anywho...dads up! hoepfully he finishes getting ready soon. xx