Yes, I am on a train! This blog should probably change it's name to the train diaries since that's almost the only time I post. Oh wells, hopefully some less transient blogs when exams finish =}
I'm on my way to my first one, Bio. Yesterday I was kinda ugh 'going to fail for sure' I don't have a clue what's going on and decided to procrastinate by figuring out how much I needed to score on this exam to pass the unit. Turns out my progressive score means I already passed XD so ...lol I didn't study very hard after that. I know I'm not going to get more than 20% on this exam even if I'm lucky but doesn't matter =D as long as I pass. Mediocrity at it's finest.
On the other hand I have an exam Friday that I need to get at least 70% on to pass the unit =S ergh. To be honest I was half welcoming failing again because it means delaying future pracs and eventually the newgrad program. I so don't feel ready. How the hell am I meant to be competent enough by March next year to work unsupervised. Ergh.
Anywho. Then next week 2 more exams and I'm set =} then I finally get proper time off for THREE whole weeks! I'm also going to the snow with Tim's family, uly, Katie and Jamie. I've already payed for some of it and miraculously managed to save up for pretty much the whole trip. Oh the things I could do if I had consistent work lol. Not looking forward to it that much though but only because I'm an unco cluts and will most likely fail at snowboarding. Plus it seems like a lot of money for something I would never do otherwise. It's cold, depressingly White and involves a great deal of physical activity and lack of rest. For me holidays or road trips should fall under two categories: relaxing or 'let's get wasted'. This falls under neither and is more of the whole adventure holiday. Bleh. The more I think about the money the more I think I could be going to Fiji or Bali for the same amount and doing something I actually want to do. Oh well, maybe I'll actually like waking up at 6am every day, being thrown out into the cold and made to cary a heavy board all day long and attempt to go down a mountain and have to go up again...for 10days. Tim's family goes every year, it's what he looks forward to all year so maybe I'll like it.
BAH! We're so different, I really did try to get into Doctor Who. I watched all of last season, this season and seen a few from previous seasons but I've just about given up. It's SO boring! I don't get the shows form of suspense. All the big shocker moments go over my head while Tim and his friends are all in disbelief, having had their worlds momentarily rocked and staring at me like I "have no soul" (to quote them directly). It's frustrating. It's a stupid show =.= and I'm just not invested in any of the characters enough to give a shit to what happens to them. I understand the feeling of having those 'yell at the screen' moments with different tv shows but I haven't ever come close with doctor who. To me, the characters just don't have enough of a human aspect to them to relate to them in any way. I don't understand their motivation so it just feels like a show whereas other tv shows become so immersive that you know exactly how you would fit into that reality. It made me think that maybe I just don't like sci-fi and fiction but that's not totally true, I like Supernatural and True Blood. The characters in Doctor Who are just so flimsy.
Ick.
So I don't think I'll have time to make muffins this week ={ I made double choc last week with this weird icing on-top where I had to melt chocolate, add full cream and add it to buttercream icing. They didn't taste or look good so I didn't bother taking pics.
You know, I didn't sleep at all last night but I'm not tired. I was in bed but I couldn't get to sleep. I had ONE cup of coffee yesterday when I woke up and I got all crazy hyper and kinda strung out. It was shit, I felt sick to my stomach, frazzled and couldn't focus. That normally doesn't happen to me...not with coffee at least, not ever. Guess I won't be having coffee for awhile =.=
I think I'm going to be late to the exam *sigh* not more than 10mins but still. I hate walking fast lol. It's a 30min walk to the exam centre but I'm not getting to central till 8:40. Oh well, i've been almost an hour late before lol. I was lucky they let me in, not that I tried very hard. I was hoping they wouldn't let me in so I wouldn't have to sit the exam. Lol... They're meant to close the doors after 30mins I think.
Geh. Anywho looking forward to the break, Kung Fu Panda2 XD and seeing more of my friends. It's difficult to balance things out properly. Some people think I spend too much time with Tim and choose him over everyone else but it's not really like that at all. He's just more convenient, I see him more than anyone else because he tends to come visit me after he finishes work but that's only for an hour and that's at like midnight. Other times I'm coming home from the station and he's on my bus route so it's just easy. It's not like it's quality time or anything lol...we don't go out a whole lot and when we do it's sorta set events like birthdays so it tends to feel like a bit more of an obligation to go than something fun to do.
I'd like to hope that when I have a car and more free time that I would go out of my way to spend time with people but at the moment I rarely do because it is just that. An effort. It involves trains and buses and money I don't have. I rarely spend money, Tim tends to shout me if we go out to eat but we don't very often and I'm trying to pay for myself from now on and when I do go to pubs/bars in the city when I meet up with him after class I never drink because it's too expensive. So cut me some slack! I don't hate you all. I promise I'll get around this break and try to see you all at least once.
Anyway almost here oh and looky, filter:
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