Hey guys =]
My first week of prac is over and I finally got to go to bed late last night and sleep in today XD
So...things have gotten a lot better, my first 2 days were horrible..mentally lol The actual prac was fine but being so stressed out and nervous was shit. All I could think about was how unprepared I am and how far I need to come to be as competent as the nurses on the ward. I considered taking next semester off just to give me more time but that's not going to do anything. I always say I'll work harder, get a job in nursing, get more experience and I have nothing to show for it so far. I think it would just be another waste of time. So hopefully in the next 3 weeks I catch up to where I'm meant to be at this stage in my learning. On the plus side, I'm starting to get a hang of the routine and some of the processes so it's coming along, I'm actually getting through a whole nights sleep now without constantly waking up from being stressed out.
I also realised the first two days were made even more miserable because it was so overcast. I would leave the house in darkness, get into the hospital while the sun was just starting to rise, be inside in artificial light all day, then head home in grey dark light and get home by the time it was dark. Not having the sun around made me feel even worse, like I was sacrificing my day and had no time for anything. Work, eat quickly and sleep. I couldn't help but think how depressing my life would be if that's what it became, 5 days of having NO time whatsoever to do anything I enjoyed and only 2 hours of "free time" that were reserved for eating and preparing for the next day. Kill me now. Being told "that's life" wasn't comforting at all, I don't want to become a drone, stuck in an unchanging bland routine. I think the more I do it, the more my energy levels adjust and I have a tiny bit more energy to get more done in those 2 hours ...so here's hoping that my life doesn't become so hollow and empty.
However, unlike some other pracs, I don't feel I'm wasting my time. I have seen a LOT of important things this week and had a tonne of firsts so at least that's something =] I think I'm even getting used to the freezing cold in the morning on the way to work and feeling better because I'm walking more (due to the traveling) and I'm eating more regularly since I have a schedule to follow so hopefully that speeds up my metabolism a little.
Anyway, I hate that I haven't blogged so I'm going to do a really long summary and try to remember what I managed to do b4 this prac starting about 2 weeks ago:
Monday 18th April 2011:That was when I had my first meeting for the PYT artistic directions committee. It was really good, I got to hear all about the upcoming projects. It gave me a much better understanding of how their organisation works and that's when I met this one girl. She was still in high school, probably year 10. She was brilliant, I haven't met someone like her in such a long time, so articulate and full of creative ideas. She really shone that night. It reminded me of how some people are really blessed with so much more ...oomph than other people. Obviously she made me feel crap about myself LOL because she was so awesome and really seemed to have a solid strong personality with so much confidence that it made her a little intimidating, even more so because she hasn't even finished highschool, I can see great things for her.
Tuesday 19th April 2011:
I had a lot of fun that day, after uni I met Matty in the city and we went to the Annie Lebovits exhibition at the MCA. We spoke so much and about so many things, it was refreshing and really reminded me of the oldddd days when we would talk like that for hours that I had almost forgotten about.
I wasn't worried exactly, but I did think about the type of people who would be at the MCA. I've never been to an art gallery before and I've just always thought of it as really pretentious. I kind of half expected a bunch of hipsters and pseudo art critics to be swarming the place with their 'holier than thou' attitudes. It was nothing like that, it was actually really laid back. Just a random mix of people from all walks of life, the occasional 'art student', grannies, people in their jogging clothes, and just ur average jeans and tshirt sort of person. It led us into a really interesting discussion about the atmosphere of different places around the world. How Australia really is laid back in so many ways compared to ...pretty much everywhere. I could write a whole post on it but watevs.
I actually really enjoyed her photography, like I mentioned before, I really didn't know anything about her, I guess I still don't know much. I just knew she was famous enough to be the 'famous photographer' who guest starred on Will and Grace lol. I'm so cultured =P LOL and on further inspection:
Glenn Close, as Fannie Lieber (a play on celebrity photographer Annie Leibovitz), a noted photographer who takes Will and Grace's picture
haha OKAY so I was off....LOL either way it got me there and I enjoyed her work, some of it was really moving. Something so simple can be so dramatic and have a huge impact, it was fascinating. Her celebrity work was stunning too, I think the one that stuck out the most was this one:
In person the colours were a lot stronger and it was way more crisp but WOW...
Also this one stood out to me, mostly because I found it so ridiculous and snobby:
OOooo look at me, I'm Leonardo Dicaprio. I'm so deep and tortured that I wear a swan as a scarf and wear plain black turtle necks in fields of grass.
-.-
douche.
actualy there was quite a few that stood out, like the one of donald trump and his wife?..actually screw it, there are no good pics of it online. It was so extravagant and retardedly opulent, I think it really captured them. They're at an airport and the wife is heavily pregnant in a gold string bikini, posing on the stairs of a jumbo jet, while Donald is in his incredibly expensive looking car that's parked next to the jumbo jet. Doi'
But yes, she also had a few that looked like anyone stuck in fogg could have taken them lol.
Then we walked up to the opera house, watched the sun set, hunted for a cheap place to eat (not an easy task at darling harbour btw) and then met up with Tim when he finished class.
Confusion:Now this is when m days become blurry, I wasn't keeping track of what I was doing so now I'm lost. I have sorta figured it out..kinda
Wed 20 April 2011:I had uni but then left early and took a detour. I decided to finally get off the bus on Norton Street and explore. I spent a couple of hours there, it was fun ^.^ I remember that being a really good day. I had gotten a distinction for something, I found a turkish bread, egg and bacon sandwhich + really good coffee for $6, found a REALLY cheap pair of flats and finally found Jura Books. Then I ended up at Tim's place.
Friday 22 April 2011:I went to a cafe and met up with Nghi, hung out all day with a bunch of interesting people. I got my coffee grinds read, apparently someones got the evil eye out on me haha. Later that night I went to tim's place and hung out.
Sat 23rd April 2011:Aly's 20th at Cargo Bar in Darling Harbour. I headed in with Tim and stef, met the girls there and Rowan who tim had invited. Ate there...the food is terrible. I don't understand why anyone would ever eat there. The food is CRAP, overpriced and you can't even hear your friends without shouting at them. We left pretty early.
Sunday 24 April 2011:Tim and I had Jap food in Livo, not very good. Then watched Rio in 3D. BEST MOVIE I'VE WATCHED IN AGES! OMFG I loved it so fucking much!! The music was amazing, the colours were so happy and bright, I cried, I laughed, I danced the entire movie in my seat. I'm pretty sure I squealed when they threw glitter confetti for the parade IN THREE_FUCKING_D!!!!! asjhalsdjsa;lads I want to go see it again. I loved it. Story line was cute, but the dancing and samba and tropical birds just did it for me. SO GOOD. Must see in 3D. No exceptions.
Then that night I went to Tim's place and watched the first ep of the new season of Dr Who with uly. Then they dropped me off at Kurts and I spent the night there with his brothers and Sonjae. She sings so loverlyyyy. I dry-heaved for the first time in my life, I've never been more disgusted with anything, I had tears in my eyes from the gag reflex kicking in. Something about Van Wilder, anyway these guys eat chocolate eclairs filled with dog cum. UGH it's making me gag a little just typing thing. GROSS.
Monday 25th April 2011:I remember walking back to Tim's place...and then nothing =S I'm blank.
Wed 27th April 2011
Tim took me into the city to try the Lindt Cafe XD The toasted chicken sandwich I had was really nice but everything with chocolate in it was icky but that might just be because I don't like Lindt chocolate. It did however keep me on a chocolate high for mostof the day which proved to be beneficial seeing as Tim decided to drag me to ever snow/ski shop in the CBD lol. Went to the QVB had dinner there with Jamie and Uly and..yism ^.^
Thur 28th April 2011:For some reason I didn't wake up until about 5pm that day, then shortly after I went to Parra with the girls for indian food. It was the first time I ever had it properly. It wasn't terrible but not my style. I don't like the spices they use.
Sunday 1st May 2011:The day before prac...OOoooo. I went to dancing in the morning then went to tim's place to watch Dr Who again with Uly. They decided to make one of their wierd food creations so we went to Franklins and got supplies:
Pizza base with extra sauce, shit load of cheese, doritoes, chilli baked beans and chicken meatballs. Topped with sour cream later. I hate to admit it but it wasnt terrible.
2-6th May 2011:Prac. I saw tim for a little after work 2 days, once at his place and the other in cabra and we got food at this korean BBQ place. It was shit.
FINALLY.
jeez.
lol...at least it won't be nagging at the back of my mind that I can't remember what I did last week haha.
toodles.
xx
