I really like, what I think is, traditional South African music. You know like Black Mumbasa <3 or some of the songs from the Lion King or the percussion in Waka Waka by Shakira featuring Freshlyground.
Speaking of! I know it's a year or two late to talk about it but seriously what was up with that! Why did they ask Shakira to do the FiFA world cup song if she's not even South African and only featured a south african band, there's even a a spanish verse in the song...seriously wth. Does Colombia have some sort of tie to South Africa? =S To my knowledge there aren't any predominately Spanish speaking areas in South Africa. Not that I would know, but hang on lemme check. Nope it doesn't, Africa in it's entirety has the lowest Spanish speaking population in the world, coming in at less that 1% which is saying a lot considering it does have one Spanish speaking country: Equatorial Guinea. I feel dumb. I've never heard of that country =S
Anyway I still love that song and I'm glad it led me to discovering Freshlyground. They have a sweet sound but they didn't sound like what I thought they would, their sounds aren't as ?'traditional'? as I expected. Still nice.
Hmm the songs that are coming up on my shuffle are really good XD they all seem to match my mood at the moment ^.^
Uni today was good, lol I love the feeling I get when I understand haha. A few years ago I stopped paying attention to what I get taught which is stupid. I like learning and understanding things reminds me of a time long long ago when I was really into studying and obsessed over marks. I remember back when I used to be in a mindset where anything lower than an A or Distinction was unacceptable.
Anything below 100% was icky and 100% didn't even feel like enough. Pressure much! lol especially since I wasn't getting 100% all the time, close but not quite. Oh how times have changed. Now I barely care if I pass. A few years ago I would have been horrified when people even joked about that. It's weird how much I've changed, and at least in this aspect not for the better.
I'm pretty sure I've talked about this subject before, wearing makeup was whorish (now I wear eyeliner every day), smoking was evil (ended up trying it and occasionally liting up), sex and sexuality was obscene (now I've got one of the dirtiest minds of the girls I used to hang around with). Masturbation was only done by guys, it didn't even cross my mind that girls could too and then when I finally realised that some girls did it too I was internally outraged, I used to think that was so foul, so morally bereft, so vulgar and the mark of a sexually depraved pervert up until 2 years ago. Yet I thought it was completely normal and and even healthy for guys.
The change that I only recently remembered is the only one that makes me feel ashamed to have thought that way. It came up because I was listening to a smodcast ep where they spoke about The Diary Of Anne Frank. They were talking about the dirty parts of the book that had been edited out of the first release of the book. That's when I remembered. I read her diary when I was in primary school. There was a part where she describes masturbating...I don't think it was even in that much detail, I think she wasn't even touching her genitals, she was just talking about playing with her nipples and it wasn't even THAT sexual, it was her getting to know her body and realising that it felt good when she touched herself that way. I haven't read it for years so I'm shady on the details. As soon as I read that I hated the book, I thought she was a freak. At that point in my life I didn't even know what masturbation was or that it even existed in any form. I immediately jumped to the assumption that she was a lesbian. I interpreted it as she wanted to touch boobs...so in my head I thought that made her a lesbian. The worst part about it all is that back then, to me that was a bad thing. I guess homosexuality had never come up before in my life except for in that moment. I saw it as something abnormal and freakish. Something wrong. It didn't fit in my head with what I knew, I remember ranting on to my family about how crazy this Anne Frank girl was and them just awkwardly ignoring me. I let it go.
I don't know when I grew up or when I stopped being a homophobe but I feel horrible that I felt that way at a point in my life. Especially now that I feel really invested in equal rights for everyone and accepting of different sexualities. I'm even a little queer myself haha I don't know when that happened either. It's so odd remembering how I felt, how angry and disgusted I was. So different =S
={ I feel guilty, my penance: raising my kids in an environment where sexuality is a normal healthy part of life.
It's odd how delayed my 'exploration of sexuality' came about. This only set in for me when I finished highschool, when I was about 19. Wierd, it creeps me out like fuck when I hear about people talk about the first time they masturbated or watched porn. The majority of the guys I know were in primary school! FUCKING PRIMRY SCHOOL. When they were about 10, that's a whole 9 years before me!
Lol I got so distracted writing this that I missed my stop. I'm in Liverpool now =S
I've heard SO many stories from
Friends about how in primary school, from about kindy to year 4 they would 'play doctor or mummy and daddy' or just generally jerk each other off in class and kiss and get naked in some way. So many people have told me those stories. I still find it beyond fucked up. I instantly have flashing red lights come up in my mind, whoever instigated the activity must have been abused. Either they saw something inappropriate for their age or they were sexually abused. It's not normal for a kid to b experimenting like that! They had to have gotten the idea somewhere.
Creeps me out so much. NOT RIGHT.
Ergh. Oh I'm here! Well I'm out, well that posted took an unexpected turn =s
Noooo what's happening. All the buses are being blocked =S
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