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Moi.
Basics.
Name: Andrea J
D.O.B: 04.02.91
Age: 22 years old
Nationality: Australian
Heritage: Chilean
A Life Worth Living.
Musac.
Wednesday, December 29, 2010
12:54 AM
So i just watched this and I felt the need to blog it immediately.
It was so amazing, she's so beautiful. I just finished watching a few other performances and almost cried, she's so intense!
That was stunning. I feel the need to go see a Drag show. TAKE ME!
btw: I'm hard to buy gifts for but peter helped me realised what I would LOVE, tickets to theatre performances/live performances. Something I can do with you =] SO TAKE ME TO A DRAG SHOW and let's go see Merry Poppins!
Back to me being stunned, he has such feminine shoulders and legs. I didn't even realise he was asian until the end. I'm very confused at what I feel towards her lol
Last night Tim and I went to Lizzie's Xmas dinner party. It was really nice, she always puts a lot of effort into making things look pretty =}
It felt really homey, it was the perfect amount of people and it was refreshing to get to talk to a group of people and listen to what everyone had to say as one entity. I guess that hasn't really happened to me properly since high school or when I catch up with the girls. I love how close they all are with each other, it's really cute. We went around the table making speeches and even that was good because it gave everyone a chance to be heard and to contribute.
It went well =} My main afterthought: I want to get to know Sheryl more. I have always found her really funny and interesting but we've only hung out a few times and talked properly maybe twice over the space of about a year.
I'm on the train at the moment heading to circular quay to meet Joel, Matty and Sebastian. We're going to Manly =} I dislike city beaches because they feel so unnatural but I'm not swimming today and that's not the point of this trip. I feel like I need a change of scenery. Do something different. I've never been to Manly with friends and I can only remember having gone there once before.
Tim was meant to come but he can't ={ I really want to see if he can get along with Joel and Michael and them. I reckon they would have heaps to talk about and it would be nice if I could include Tim in some of the stuff we do without it being awkward and having to just avoiding the situations completely.
So yesterday the way I view achievements came up a lot. It started with graduation in the morning. I found it a bit of a joke that they attempted to give us a "ceremony" and people saying they were proud of us. It bugged me, it was just a 9 week course with 2 assessments. Really easy ones and they gave everyone a million opportunities to redo or work on their answers. I find it insulting that they're "proud of us" or when other students congratulated me because it's like they're saying they're surprised I passed. I know I sound like such an arrogant tool for saying all this but I can't help it. Passing a bunch of competencies that weren't even graded is hardly an achievement.
A few other discussions during the day revolved around similar topics and I guess I realised that I have really high standards. Standards that I don't even meet myself which I guess is also why I'm not proud of myself and all that jazz. Generally I feel like most things aren't good enough unless you are THE best and sometimes even that doesn't count. Example: you got first in the grade...good on you =} BUT there is another student out there who is better than you in another school. So nice effort but well... ur not the best.
I am in no way saying I'm good at anything here, I think I got a Distinction for one subject and a pass for the other. That's shit. I'm not going to beat myself up about it but I know that's hardly impressive. I barely studied and I did everything last minute. It's lucky is what it is.
I'm a little more lenient when I think the person "tried their hardest" but I don't think I've ever come across a person who has actually tried their hardest. There is always more you can do. ALWAYS. Even if you got 100% in something I probably won't be all that impressed because it most likely came easily to you and there is no merit in that.
So erm, unless you've really sacrificed urself and given things up to get where you are I'm not impressed. That's not to say I don't think it's nice that you passed or got a job or whatever but hey, it's not like you cured cancer.
I sound so mean ={ but if it makes me any less of a shit person, I also hold myself up to those same standards lol.
Two more stops and I'm there ^.^ Anywho merry Xmas and all that crap, I'll probably write in here b4 then anyway.
I'm in such a good mood but I have no one to share it with =[
Tim's at work, everyone else is still hung over and I'm not going to see Joely for a few more hours. POOP and I missed the the dance picnic...which was fine coz i was too out of it to go but now Im good haha...
I woke up feeling sluggish and then made it worse by eating a shit-tonne of namnung and cadbury roses chocolates courtesy of Warren and Nat lol. Last night was really fun ♥ It was Nat's xmas party and the first time I hung out with everyone and Tim again since we broke up. I thought it might be awkward but it was totally fine AND another first: Tim and Kurt were both there and there were no dramas and I didn't feel split between the two which was great. I had a really good time, as usual I barely took ANY photos at all....but I do remember a lot of horrible pics being taken of me so I'm going to have to be on alert to untagg myself haha
I also kind of just...feel really good. The tafe thing is pretty much over, i don't have anything due for uni for another two weeks and there's a lot of activities leading up to xmas. I get to see joel tonight and things seem really good with tim for the first time in ages.
Anywho here are some of the few pics I got last night. I also got like an hour of footage of songae and Warren singing glee and disney songs haha but I won't be putting that up unless i get some basic editing software. Freaking windows movie maker doesn't work for shit, always freezes =.=
I'm also kind of excited, Joel want's to try doing The Dark Side of the Rainbow...sounds trippy despite it sounding a little bit like a load of crap... BUT why the hell NOT, that movie always scared the crap out of me and pink floyd and the dark side of the moon always creeped me out a little too. I shall let you know how it goes.
Ohhh it's raining, I'm going to go check it out. xx
Hey all, Today was my last day at the nursing home, this week has been pretty awesome. I had my prac assessment on Monday and that went extremely well and all week I've been receiving compliments from patients, relos and all the staff, whether they be laundry, kitchen, nursing and DT's. I got offered a job there twice by the manager and got told by a few of the people working with me that they looked forward to me working there with them so yeah...that was pretty uplifting, hehe some of them even got me xmas gifts after only knowing me for like 8 days. I even got used to getting up early and really loved the environment at this workplace. I MAY apply once xmas is over but I need to redo my CV.
The trip to Nelsons Bay with the girls is on its way and I may be going to Foster with Tim again. There's also the weekend away with kurt to look forward to and a few xmas parties over the next couple of days. I did a bit of xmas shopping last night which really bugged me. I was so looking forward to not having to buy anyone anything but I had a stupid KK thing for dancing and felt bad not getting anything for the nursing home staff and for tafe.
I feel MUCH more confident than I did b4 but that doesn't mean I won't feel shit for the next prac. I can't help but doubt myself especially in new situations, nothing is ever the same so I can't expect things to be easy.
Hmm I wonder what's going to happen for new years...I'm assuming I'm going to Jamie's place again, hopefully this year ends and starts better than last new years =.=
So I decided I needed to finish that 30day task thing I started awhile back. I'm not in the greatest mood so don't expect a lot:
Day 13- A letter to someone who has hurt you recently I think this is sort of stupid, people who have hurt me know they have so this person has already heard this.
You can be so shit =[ I wish you would be more self aware...but even then that would suck because that would mean ur just putting up a front around me. You being a different person would be nice...lol but that's a terrible thing to ask for. You know what you've done and you have no excuses.
Day 14- A picture of you and your family lame, not doing it.
Day 15- Put your iPod on shuffle: First 10 songs that play I don't care.
Day 16- Another picture of yourself You know what I look like =.=
Day 17- Someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why Michelle Loretto because she's so in love that she moved COUNTRIES. I want to know what that feels like.
Day 18- Plans/dreams/goals you have Finish uni, get job, get car, get house, travel world, make meaningful relationships
Day 19- Nicknames you have; why do you have them Audrina. Motu couldn't say my name properly lol Audrey. Tim couldn't say my name properly Andy. I gave it to myself and it somehow caught on, I liked the idea of having a guys name. Panda. People think im cute like a panda aka: fat, hairy, lazy, dark circles, wears monochromatic colours.
Day 20- Someone you see yourself marrying/being with in the future uhm...i can see myself with some of my friends in the future...sorta
Day 21- A picture of something that makes you happy I'm so not in the mood for this but I want to 'complete' the task
Day 22- What makes you different from everyone else errr the combination of all the things that makes me the same?
Day 23- Something you crave for a lot being needed.
Day 24- A letter to your parents You've both been really shit at times but I owe you a lot so I'm not complaining.
Day 25- What I would find in your bag Usually a lot of tissues in case I get a runny nose, my phone, wallet, makeup bag and mirror
Day 26- What you think about your friends lol they're all too different. I'm grateful because they make my life less dull.
Day 27- Why are you doing this 30 day challenge I was bored at the time but now I just feel obligated to finish it.
Day 28- A picture of you last year and now, how have you changed since then? Wasn't that one of the first questions? Well since last year...a lot has changed. Too much to mention again, I did a post on this half way through the year when I started uni again in 2nd semester. I guess since that post other things that have changed as well: -I'm no longer afraid to make phone calls to buisnesses + rrandoms -I passed all my uni subjects, got closer to one guy and then lost his pseudo friendship completely -I finally met someone new who I could talk to -I got a new tenant + puppy -I got a JOB as an event technician -I've saved up enough money for a car (but wanna save more for a better car) -Broke up with tim and got back together -Completed Cert III in Aged Care and did two weeks in a nursing home and was loved by everyone ♥ yes I know that sounds conceited. -Drinking alko is off putting to me now =S I don;t know why....I just feel so full when I drink now that I'm not bothered, it's just uncomfortable.
Day 29- In this past month, what have you learned? How to be an AIN, lighting and sound stuff for work and ...i don't know what else
Day 30- Who are you? There's no way to answer this without sounding lame. Initially when I hear this question out of context I find it stupid and I just want to say I'm me. I suppose I am primarily a guilt-driven person which people seem to mistake for being nice and sweet. I'm overly sensitive and don't really like myself that much for lots of reasons. I'm ...lame =S I DON'T KNOW...I'm just another person.
I'm on my break at prac. I HATE that I'm missing work tomorrow for this *sigh* getting called in is a rare occasion and now I have to tell them I'm busy =.=
Anyway I was listening to people on our last break complaining about how hard it is to get pregnant. I've always thought that is one of the most stupid concepts ever. Trying to get pregnant = having lots of sex. I don't see the problem. I really don't, they act like it's such an arduous task. It's sex... aren't you suppose to want sex, especially with the person you want to eventually have a kid with. Idiots. Even if you are having sex and ending up covered in sweat and tired, isn't that worth it? Plus if u realllllllly can't be bothered, it's not like it's that hard to make a guy come =.=
Also, I didn't realize how many Xmas songs there are, ancient ones that I haven't EVER heard of but all the oldies at the nursing home know. Then I realized I don't know all the words to any Xmas songs, even the ones that were popular when I was a kid. Christmas is lame =.=
Hey guys I felt kind of guilty for not blogging for such a long time. My week has been really busy. I started my practical component for my Cert III in Aged Care on Monday at a nursing home in Greystanes. I've got a week left and I'm not dying for it to be over but I will definitely be glad. People have been surprisingly nice and good to work with and the ward I'm in is pretty good. In general though it's a very depressing job and I can't help but get upset fairly often. It's all very emotionally draining and tiring, not because it's super heavy but because I have to get up so early and going to bed early makes me feel like the biggest loser.
I guess the last month or so has been pretty lousy and have been dealing with a lot. I am no where nearer to feeling completely better or like anything has truely been resolved which is scary. I hate these feelings =[ But I don't want to bum you all out with that. I just want things to get better.
So uhm a few things:
1. New puppy, it's our tenants but me and mum have taken on a pretty active role in taking care of it. It's called Scuzy and it's a boy:
No I'm not choking it =.=
It's cute and stuff but I really don't like animals that much. I also don't like young things, they're too much work. This puppy has reminded me how much I don't want kids.
2. I feel fairly proud at how I've managed a lot of things on the prac. How unfazed I am by some things that a lot of people get grossed out by and don't understand. I like that a lot of the things that come with nursing are completely normal for me and have been for a very long time. I guess it helps having family in the area. What I mean by this mostly is dealing with patient's personal care, showering, toileting, feeding, wound care. I don't mind it, it's actually the highlight of the work I have to do. It seems so natural and I'm only reminded of how "out of the ordinary" some people find it. It really bugs me when people get grossed out.
3. I'm officially back on with Tim. Erm...coming out with it has been pretty difficult, a lot of it has to do with other people's opinions and I hate that I care what people think but I do. Either way I'm going to go ahead with it all and do this my way. I know I'm not going to get a lot of support but I need him in my life, right now at least. I love the idiot =]
I'm pretty damn scared...but well what can you do. I don't like the other options and if it means taking a chance and risking things I am going to do it. I need to make this work.
4. I've been considering more and more about getting serious with this whole event technician stuff. I'm working as one and barely have any training but it's actually really fun. I enjoy it a lot...and it's so much easier than nursing, so SO much easier. So i was thinking about getting some more training in sound and lighting, the only problem is that it's kind of expensive and my main priority right now is saving up for a car, despite not having my p's.
Speaking of p's...i was thinking of just starting to pay for driving lessons. I got like 3 lessons with an instructor a few months ago and it was the only significant time behind the wheel I've ever had. Driving with mum is too difficult. So i guess once this prac week is over I'm going to book a couple despite my instructor saying I should just practice with mum instead of paying for lessons. I'm getting no where at the moment and I really REALLY need them. I feel so lame always having to ask for lifts and crap and taking the bus/trains to work in the morning is going to be impossible with nursing since most places start at 6am and rarely close to public transport.
REMIND ME!!
SOOOOO if you're planning on buying me anything for xmas...maybe just pay for some driving lessons for me. The guy I went to b4 charged $30 so if u know of any cheaper, let me know =]
SO THAT'S THE PLAN! The idea is that I save up for half of the car and my dad will cover the rest. I have no clue about cars and don't want to get ripped off...so if any of you are mechanics and...preferably a guy, could you PLEASEEEEE come car hunting with me next year ^.^ Yes, I did say guy. It sucks but I truly do believe that mechanics like ripping off women =.=
I doubt I'll have time to blog during the week and I should possibly take a nap now, I think I'm going to a party tonight and need to get up at 5am so I can get assessed tomorrow =S
-I'm bored and really tired but I'm trying to hold off on sleeping so I can correct my hours somewhat.
-My week seems slightly blurry. Things done: went to stef's place, watched the latest harry potter, finished my tafe assessment, did the lighting for a disco, helped set up a workshop on toy bending to make electronica, tafe.
Odds and Ends:
-Gossip girl over-dramatizes everything. I was rewatching an ep where Serena goes out partying one night and comes home drunk and is about to spew. Que suspenseful music and friends who make a big deal out of it. The music and Blair's commands make it sound so life or death. When I first watched it I guess it dragged me in but now that I've watched it again I realised how stupid that scene is. I've helped out drunk friends who are spewing plenty of times, it's not a big to-do. The scene in question if you're interested here.
-I'm terrible at answering small talk questions. My go to response is 'how kool/awesome" or "oh wow".
Example: I'm at the servo and get asked for id, the guy looks at my license and says all excited "HEY! We have the same birthday except I'm a year older". I tried to muster up some excitement and all I could get was a cheesy awkward smile and said "really...haha, how kool" =S. Then he tells me his best friends birthday is the day before ours. My response: "oh...wow" and then he tells me two other people he knows are born in Feb. I'm really struggling to come up with something to say here and I almost said Happy Birthday but then stopped myself because we're not anywhere near Feb so I said "ha...February's a busy month" and smiled awkwardly again and go out of there as quickly as I could.
What the hell was I supposed to say to that =S Sure he was friendly but what he was saying was so pointless. I guesssss I could have dealt with the simple 'we share a birthday' and then left but he kept talking. Yet I know several people who could have somehow spun that into a decent conversation, sadly I do not posses those skills. Help meeee?
-My nursing home prac starts Monday. It's in greystanes. I'm nervous =[ I don't feel cut out for nursing some times, I feel like all the other teachers and nurses are frustrated with my practical skills and just me in general. *sigh* It'll have to get better eventually...right?
-Taylor Momsen annoys me and this video clip disturbs me:
Why the hell is she rolling around on a table and forcing a bunch of grown men to avoid looking at her underage fanny that's being waved about in-front of their noses. Her attempt at being angrily sexy fails. Her "fierce" bedroom eyes are creeping me out, for most of the video I can only see the whites of her eyes and her crawling is disjointed and messy. WHY ARE YOU THROWING ORANGES AT ME and learn to look into the damn camera lens. I would feel so stupid filming that, what must those guys be thinking.
On the plus side, I actually don't mind her racoon eyes most of the time or her fashion sense. It's just that stupid infuriating scowl she has in all her interviews, pics, vids and even gossip girl now. Example:
So one day I was hanging out with Kurt and we realised that there are some pretty wacky sayings in the spanish language.
Each Spanish speaking country has their own sayings, metaphors and similies but these are a few that I have collected over the last year or so.
Every time I hear my mum or grandma say a new one I text Kurt XD It has become somewhat of a little tradition for me now =]
Saying: La negrita astuta vende fruta.
Direct Translation: The (Astute, cunning, sly, crafty, fraudulent) cute/little black girl sells fruit.
Meaning: This saying is said as a sort of warning that you are/someone else is a cocktease
Saying: No calientes el agua (si no vas a tomar té)
Direct Translation: Don't heat the water if you're not going to drink tea
Meaning: This is also a sort of warning to someone who is being a cocktease. Kind of like, don't flirt and lead someone on if you have no intention of hooking up with them. It is also a play on words because in Spanish (Chilean at least) the word calentar (to heat) is also used informally as a way to say 'make horny'. So 'estoy caliente' = I'm hot BUT it means I'm horny. If you wanted to say I'm hot (because of the weather) you would say 'tengo calor'
Tongue Twister: Tres tristes tigres trigo trillaron tranquilos tragaron
Translation: Three sad tigers, wheat they threshed (To separate the grain from the straw or husks by mechanical beating), calmly they swallowed.
Tongue Twister:Pedro Pablo Pérez Pereira pobre pintor portugués pinta paisajes por poca plata para pasar por París
Translation: Pedro Pablo Pérez Pereira poor Portugese painter paints landscapes for little money to pass through Paris.
Saying:Buscarle la quinta pata al gato
Direct Translation:To look for the 5th leg of the cat
Meaning: Looking for problems when there clearly aren't any in that situation, so you're over thinking it and overcomplicating yourself.
Saying: Para ser bella hay que ver estrellas
Direct Translation: To be beautiful you have to see stars
Meaning: I'm guessing this is a fairly old saying because my grandad said it to me once, I kind of fell in love with this little rhyme/mantra. It means that no pain is too great to endure in order to look your best, this particularly refers to women having to wear painful shoes (stilettos) because it makes their legs look hot, wearing tight clothing to show off curves, waxing, plucking, dying hair, and I suppose nowadays you could extend that into getting cosmetic surgery. Just to clarify, my grandad wasn't a dick, I remember the saying coming up because we were watching a show with really attractive women and I was in awe of them and he explained that constructed superficial beauty comes at a price =) Oh and if you don't get the imagery, it's based on seeing "stars" when you hit your head/get dizzy, like if you've ever seen the cartoon representation of stars around the head when they get hit.
*To be continued
To Do.
Here's a list of some of the things I would like to do or accomplish or places I want to visit in my lifetime =]
* I have already been there, done that or started to read that but would like to do it again or complete the task
-- The task is completed and I don't feel the need to do a repeat