Hey...ugh this music is so loud =.=
If I turn it down mum will get annoyed at me ugh. She's ruining this music for meeeee
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I just want to blog in silence bleh.
I CAN'T THINK ANYMORE. I don't even know what I wanted to say anymore.
awesome. music down. So ermm..I've lost my train of thought again.
I feel all responsible and under a little pressure.
omg. interrupted again.
When I was younger my mum was a tech wiz, she could fix the computer and any other appliance when it wasn't working. She was the one I ran to when I couldn't figure out how to work our computer. Then I grew up and she magically forgot how to use a computer =.=
This is impossibly frustrating because I know she's not an idiot and everything I learnt I got from her. Not that I know a lot but come ON! Now she needs me for everything computer related. So annoying because I know she just wants attention. What's more annoying is that the main computer is in my room =.= Finally, after 18 years of sharing a room with my mum I've developed a sense of my own space which my grandma always hassled us about. It's only backfired really. She says I never leave my room anymore...WHY WOULD I! Everything I need is in here, my stuff, my bed, my computer.
Anyway back to my original point. I did a lot of searching last week to find the best deal for a holiday house for the road trip Tim planned. We got the cheapest option WEWT. We thought we might not because of our age group. We're going to Foster. I ended up taking over lol....I'm sorry timmm. I just needed to feel secure. I guess I've become the unofficial treasurer as well lol
I also arranged to get swapped for my placement in the nursing home. They were trying to send me off somewhere near the airport. FUCK THAT. I don't drive, I'm not getting paid and I need to be at work by 6:15am at the latest. Mums nursing home said they would take me...but ergh they're not that reliable so I'll find out tomorrow I guess.
SO today's task:
"A few facts about each about ten of your friends"
These task descriptions weren't written very well =.=
I've actually put this off for a few days because I didn't know who to write about and realised I have a very limited social circle...lol but it's my own fault I guess. It's just that I feel fulfilled with the social contact I get right now which mainly just comes from 2 people, Tim and Kurt. Mainly tim. *sigh*
I'm so dull...lol I generally prefer my own company. People must think I'm the biggest snob. I just can't connect with new people...usually. Maybe I need to change....
I didn't make any friends at uni. I have a group of acquaintances but they approached me...and I backed away from getting closer to them pretty quickly. I just didn't like them. Now at tafe...I just don't find anyone interesting and I'd much rather listen to my podcasts than have to endure awkward chats that lead to nowhere.
How was your weekend?
Do you have kids?
Where do you live?
What do you work in?
Everything ends so quickly...even the few stories I've heard about people's entire LIFE have lead NO WHERE.
Example:
blahblahblah. Single mum, my babies daddy won't acknowledge his daughter, I get wasted on the weekends, my x now has brain damage after a drink driving incident.
me: oh...wow. so uhm...who looks after you're baby while you're here?
her: my mum
me: ahhh that's nice of her, soooo...where are you going this weekend?
her: the local
THE END
so dull ={
Occasionally I listen to their conversations, to see what it is I'm missing out on and why they seem to be connecting better than I can and I really don't understand how they do it. They all seem to laugh a lot at really lame things and their conversations are so dull yet the manage to flow. I really don't get it. Then I tune out again because I don't have the patience to waste attempting to talk to people who I find mundane and off-putting (for various other reasons not mentioned).
Maybe I'm not trying hard enough...I DON'T KNOW. The thing is, I don't feel the need to make new friends, the only reason I question all of this is because I worry that one day I won't have Kurt and Tim and I'll be left totally alone and then I don't think I will feel so at easy when it's just me.
Then I think of my high school friends. When I'm away from them I feel pretty lazy and don't make an effort to see them but then I occasionally do and I have a good time. I'm an idiot.
So here goes. My 10 friends =S
Kurtis Futterleib
The bestesterest Best friend ever ♥
-A lot of people think we have been besties since kindy. We were besties in kindy, broke up and got back together again in year 10
-His mum's name is Gay
-He has a doggy called honey who has been trying to rape me for years...and has come VERY close to snout-to-vag penetration on more than one occasion LOL
-He is writing a novel...always =P
-His brain is like a sponge for odd bits and pieces of info. I go to him b4 I go to google
-He's so damn charming
-He has a fucking massive tongue
-We accidental swapped bags in kindy and he had to come over and pick it and I got all dressed up to see him...but he left before I could go to the door ={
-He wants to be a body piercer one day
-He did karate in primary school and we compared moves one day. I thought he was showing off lol
When am I meant to stop?
-He's the only friend I've been overseas with XD
-We used to live down the road from each other ={
-He is loveable
Actually..screw the task! I want to write why he's my friend too.
I've connected with Kurt in ways that I haven't ever connected with anyone. He's so special and he gets me! He gets my lameness and somehow still manages to want to stay friends with me after all my shittyness. I can be myself with him, my stupid ranty nonsensical thought patterned self and I still don't feel judged. I can't do that with anyone else, not even my family. We've shared so much, all of my happiest moments are with him ♥
Joel Bolton
-That's such an old photo, scout hall back in the day =}
-I met him in a pet shop in 2006 (good year for me, I met the people I really grew up with and finally got to live a little ♥)
-One of his x girlfriends use to use Ralph Loren Cool
-I continued going to scouts because Joel made it fun
-I broke his beaded necklace at scouts...i still feel guilty
-He knows people EVERYWHERE. It's impossible to go anywhere without him bumping into anyone...even when we went to some festival in the mountains lol
-He's not on uppers I SWEAR! He just has a lot of energy
-He has a fascinating mind, he should speak up more often
-I went to Job For a Cowboy with him
-We used to live down the road from each other ={
-He is SO entertaining, even more so when he's not all hyped up
-He can play the piano so well! But he's so damn shy about it =.=
-He's going to be one of santas helpers this year hehe ♥
-He almost bled to death in my garage trying to "SAVE THE ALCOHOL" lol
I love him, our chats can go in so many directions and getting down time with him is the BEST because that's when you really get to see how he feels and thinks and it really is amazing. Being his friend makes me feel special because he knows sooooo many people and EVERYONE loves joel. It's impossible not to.
Michael McHugh
-The pic is from our last scout camp together.
-He can be really mean.
-His tantrums are hilarious
-He screams like a girl when a cockroach is flying at him
-He plays lawn bowls...really well
-He plays guitar hero on expert
-He likes Dr Who and Dylan Moran
-He drinks like an Irish man (because he partly is)
-I've seen him throw up more times than I can count
-He gave me my first cigg
-I've seen him do more nudie runs than I can count.
-I used to have the hugest crush on him.
-My sleeping bag has been in his house for over a year =.=
If it wasn't for Joel and Kurt we wouldn't be friends. I'm pretty sure he doesn't actually like me lol I don't care because we were part of our little group and together we had some great times. A party without him just wouldn't feel right.
Matthew Cameron
-I met him in parra westfields one day
-He convinced me to come to scouts =}
-He spent a year in Finland on exchange last year
-He went to the highschool next to mine but I probably met up with his sister outside of school more than with him haha
-He is surprisingly good at knitting and won us one of our challeges on dragonskin due to his awesome knitting abilities
-He has an amazing affinity for languages
-His bedroom is an organised chaos
-He used to be in a band with Joel and Mikel called "The Moshcrew"
-We have similar interests in the social sciences but he actually went and studied it
-He got mugged on a train FULL of scouts on the way to dragonskin ={
-He picked up a Canadian accent while he was in Finland LOL
I like being his friend because he's so knowledgable. He's like a walking encyclopedia. The friendship that started between us has probably been the most random & succesful friendships I've formed. We should really hang out more *sigh* I've lost touch with a lot of these guys and then we hang out again occasionally and it's like nothing ever changed ♥ If it wasn't for Matty I wouldn't have gotten closer to Mikel and Joel and would have given up almost instantly from scouts because I never meshed well with anyone there and at the start mikel and Joel didn't talk to me much.
Stephanie Mineo aka: Stephen
-I've known her since we got partnered together for a science experiment in year 9
-She has gotten all her licensing merits on the first go
-She has a love for animals unmatched by anyone I know
-Our music tastes used to be very similar
-I went to one of my fav concerts with her. Panic! at the disco
-Anberlin and Panic! At the disco have been her fav bands in the past
-I've slowly seen her walls get eaten up by posters since I've met her
-She has an awesome house
-She's the most honest and responsible person I know
-She's really good at drawing animals
-She kept my tombstone in her room for about 3 years
-She has too many pets =P
She's awesome, she kept me sane throughout highschool...or as sane as I was back then lol. The classes I had with her were the best, we used to laugh so much. We don't hang out enough ={
Timothy Nguyen
-That's the first photo we ever took together
-I'm not exaggerating when I say that he picked me up that night in hot damn by headbutting me and dragging me off into a dark corner
-He has the best butt
-I feel wierd calling him a friend because we went straight into being a couple...I guess we'll know if we're still friends after we break up (highly unlikely)
-We have almost nothing in common (interest wise)
-I was friends with two of his x's b4 we started dating
-I've hooked up with one of them lol
-I was highly amused that night when I saw that his full name sounds like Tritan
-He's a really picky eater
-He's an attention whore
-Fish sauce makes him throw up
-People judge him too quickly
A lot of people say we have an odd relationship but with a really good dynamic. I agree...we're not like most couples and I've sort of lost the ability to act "normal" when I'm with him. It's too easy to start playing and dancing or doing whatever it is that we do. I think that's what other people find odd...I'm not really sure, no one ever explains it to us properly.
Michelle Toutounji
-I still can't spell her last name
-She's been doing Karate since she was in primary school. She is now a black belt
-She got me into the dance group oddly enough lol she's not even colombian..or latina
-Her dad is a chef!
-She's the most health conscious person I know
-She gets tipsy fast =P
-She's so activeeee
-She has a competitive streak
-She likes dancing XD
-I've known her since year 8
-My mum knows her aunties and used to care for her grandmother in the nursing home
-One of her aunties knows my dad =S
-Her mothers side is filo
-She recently got a job at Coles
-She's a really good listener
Weeee I'm glad we reconnected and over the weirdest thing too. We used to be really close in year 9 i think, use to spend hours on the phone and then we slowly drifted apart even though we sat together all through high school. I see her the most out of my high school friends because we do dancing together.
Peter Nguyen!
-He's hard to find pics of *sigh*
-He's shy
-He's incredibly loyal
-He always has his headphones in
-We could easily talk for hours
-He's been trying to leave the dance group for months
-We went to the same primary school and met again because of Michelle (the go to the same uni)
-His older brother was friends with Tim and Uly
I don't know who else to put, anyone else and it's really stretching it. I consider all of my high school group friends but I haven't had any meaningful contact with them in months so...
Out of Tim's friends. I choose WARREN!
He's so awesome =}
He has such a big heart
He's really funny in a more subtle way
Getting drunk with him is heaps of fun
I find him really interesting, I want to get to know him more
He's the only one of tim's friends whose number I have
He seems to have gone through a lot of shit to get where he is today which is why it makes me so happy when good things happen to him =]
So I'm two short...lol
oh well
god that took forever.
x
