heh..i look odd
anywho IM SORRY. after raging on my friends that they havent blogged for a few days i did the same lol...
I guess..i was busy :S I don't really remember anything..and that is exactly why I still keep the private blog. These days its mostly just pictures of where I am. Helps me remember =] ...except that this stupid house has horrible reception (just 4 my phone) so a lot of the blogs never get sent =.= and they're the most important ones. theyre quick snapshots of how im feeling in the moment. raging. lovey dovey. jelous. upset. confused
THEYRE IMPORTANT
stupid phone =.=
so
Sunday: didnt go to dancing =[ lol..i couldnt b bothered getting the train and bus so i was counting on michelle to take me..but she was busy haha..oh wells. Then there was a very boring and long process of me and mum making guisso. Then ryan slept over. We watched black books, and jewtube, and 5th element. XD i tend to forget how much i enjoy that movie. Really good =] And pumpkin soup...and a confronting and awkward phone call with tim. lol...we decided to say all the things we dont like about each other. I hate doing that..mostly because in the past its caused me a lot of problems. People say they wont take it to heart. but they generally do. Its hard listening to all the shit parts about yourself. But at the same time its a good way to grow I guess. Eventually i slept..and then got up like an hour later *sigh*
Monday:
My aunty came and picked me up and we dropped of ryan and her kids at school/station and then drove to the Cambeltown Campus. The morning flew past. I sat in on her MSN CPU class :S lol
*gtg get gran and food*
Im back =] but now i need to help my gran write an email.
hang on.
or not. she wants to write a draft first.
SO we picked her up from ffield and then went to bonnyrigg plaza..i dislike it there..but not as much as i dislike pemulway or neeta city..anywho. we went to get HAIR DYE ..eep :S
my hairs been looking rank 4 ages and mum was like ENOUGH just dye the whole thing one solid colour n when she has money ill go get the streaks done again? maybe..So i got a brown that looks a tad reddy =]
Im kinda scared. The colour is probably going to be very different to my natural so now instead of having streaks oh regrowth it will be my whole head =.= Ill never be able to stop dying it :S
geh...my hair feels a little dead latly..it use to shine and by all naturally curly and wavey without me needing to do anything..=[
*got caught up looking at pics of when my hair was good*
example=
Not the best look...haha, I was in parra with alyssa. I think thats in city beach. I just like how curly my hair is there XD
that was my freedom party at the end of yr 12
wagaya. eww..food was overpriced..probably just that we split the bill and half of us picked at our bowls of rice while the azians loaded up haha..
my hairs alright..mostly im putting it up just coz we both look so happy <3 i miss joely
we took this after going to UNSW's open day i think..lol i had to blow dry my hair..and my clothes under the hand dryer in maccas in the city lol...it poured down hard that day. We're in parra using one of the macs in david jones..possibly myer..lol
=]
my mums working night shift again so shes sleeping n didnt have time to drop my gran back home so shes sleeping here i think. We're both in my room and watching this amazing chinese concert. Its contemporary/classical music. its all girls, mostly playing asian instruments. I don't even know what they're called..ill have to look it up. I love music <3 its so fullfilling
One girls playing a
Guqin.
seven-stringed zither without bridges, the most classical Listen to guqin music Chinese instrument with over 3000 years of history. The guqin is guqinoften referred to as the instrument of sages for the purpose of enriching the heart and elevating human spirit. Confucius (around 600 BC) was a master of this instrument. In the Imperial China's past, well-educated people of the elite society were expected to master the four arts, namely, the qin (guqin), qi (weiqi, which has somehow been known as "Go" in the West according Japanese pronuciation), shu (Calligraphy), and hua (painting). Being on top of the four traditional arts, the guqin has historically been regarded as one of the most important symbols of Chinese high culture. Unfortunately only small number of people in China could play the instrument, because classical musical education of this kind has never reached general public. Fortunately, the situation has much been improved in recent decades, there have been a growing number of guqin players both in and outside China. Since november 2003, Guqin has been registered as one of the master pieces of the Oral and Intangible Heritage of the humanity by UNESCO
interesting ^.^
Its like a piece of wood that sits on a table and it has strings and they pluck it.
There aare a ouple of
pipasfour-stringed lute with 30 frets and pear-shaped body. The instrumentalist holds the pipa upright and play with five small plectra attached to each finger of the right hand. The pipa history can be dated back at least 2000 years and developed from pentatonic to full scales. This instrument has extremely wide dynamic range and remarkable expressive power
wow and a bunch of others that i cant really tell apart..
but they sound amazing =]
lots of flutes..and that one that the asian busker guy in the city/cabra always plays
XD
lol and theyre all "pretty"..interesting.
SO back to my pointless rambling about my day =]
Ive got a bit of the hair dye on the back of my ear to see if i get an allergic reaction..its been there for an hour maybe and i cant feel a thing...but it says to wait 48hrs...meh ill take the risk. ill dye it later tonight dundundunnnnn
I was having one of those days were people look and talk to you more ..dunno y..
lol..the fish n chip guy ran into me again later and asked me if i wanted some calamari :S and i didnt..lol but then he informed me that theyre open on good friday! and to tell EVERYONE i knew...:S
coz thats totally not random..
SO instead. Im telling all my readers.
KING OF THE SEA in bonnyrigg plaza is open good friday!!
so..u know..if u NEED fish n chips on good friday...theres the place to be..:S
Then the wendys guy started chatting to me about the new girl they had yesterday and how she had made so many mistakes that she felt bad and said they could skip paying her for that day...lol :S
very friendly i suppose..
then there was the priceline lady...WIERD
:S
ohhh while we were eating i saw these two little CHILDREN...couldnt b older than 8 years old..SMOKING =[ beh it made me sad....theyre so little..WHERE are their parents =.= and dont they CARE!! its kind of that feeling i get when I see pregnant women drinking or smoking. actually no, thats more of a HATRED. fucking idiots. YOUR HAVING A CHILD. wouldnt u try to do EVERYTHING in your power to be as healthy as you possibly can. jfdnvcsdnjkc RAGE =.=
and i dont care if doctors say they canhave a glass of wine every once in awhile in the first trimester or watever the rules are. UR POOR BABY
i can tell i would be nuts..
id like go insane and go vegan and make sure i was staying away from too much processed foods and eating as healthy as possible and joining all those preggers excercise classes and read every book i could possibly find. ID NEVER give my baby canned baby food..jesusfuckingchrist! your baby needs FRESH pureed vegetables and fruits so they can get as many of the good nutrients as they can get. HBSHBDSDLSJD
and that is always why i don't wanna have a baby. too much work..and stress and insanity. lol...my mum didn't sleep for the first month she had me hahaa...she was too freaked out id die in my sleep..so shed watch me and make sure i was breathing..LOL...
THAT is going to be me. she actually did take good care of herself and me at the beginning. but once she went back to work and my grandparents took over everything went down the drain. =[
way too much responsibility..too much to handle. eep
RIGHT back to my days:
monday. auntys classes were awesome once again, shes so thorough :S is that how u spellit. So ive learnt how to do insulin infusions XD and i also went to some first year classes where she showed us how to do a bed bath and how to make the bed wih the patient still in it. I already learnt that...ON MY FUCKING PRAC. it was so stressful. shit uni teachers didnt teach me jeck shit =.=
or..well they did..but they didnt do a lot of things.
some uni people are fucking retarded. they kept asking the same uqestions over n over again about their assessments and how to do it. LIKE FUCK. pay attention! but theyre the same at my uni..people dont seem to understand that if they read the asignment guidleins and the criteria they would know everything!
EVERYTHING
and not waste all lesson asking retarded questions that have already been answered.
If it says 5 references minimum. then NO that does not mean u can hand in 2. FUCK..its not that hard.
sjabaskdnk;sda
people are idiots =.=
Speaking of, one of the things tim said he didnt like about me was my bitchyness.
hmm..well i know, its a problem. Im not very upfront. i am with him though ...now ^.^
lol...it took awhile..but u know, now whenever he annoys me I tell him straight away..usually.
But mums told me she doesnt like it either..and my aunty has too..
its just hard u know...if i told everyone what I hated about them I would barely have any friends :S lol
Plus it means people start attacking me =[ haha...which is hard to deal with..but i suppose its important to know.
Ill try....sorta...things are just easier this way =[
hmm being upfront..so hard. but i know a few people like that..although...hmm NO ONE LIKES THEM..lol coz theyre too upfront and people dont like being confronted with their FLAWS
geh
i dunno...we'll see.
im really very tierd. After I got home from uni at around 7pm mums 2 work mates came over..and were being very clucky..and I barely slept the night b4 and the night b4 that. and tim called <3 so I asked him to save me and he came in his white and shinning armour (aka his mums car XD) Went to maccas n then his place =] Which is where my cold started kicking in. and he was a sweetheart n made me TEA =]
I dropped when I got home around midnight and woke up at about 1pm today =]
Ive got the rest of the pilot of Community loaded so i can finish watching it..been trying to for 3 days now. its nothing special but tim said i might like it..so here goes. intro wasnt terrible.
oh n i finally got my house key today haha...
I still need to do add the 2 other tabs to this blog..
and FINISH UNCHARTED 2..gah, i havent touched the ps3 in ages.
my tummy hurts =[ from the pizza last night and possibly the lemon tea..lol im sure having fish and chips plus a wendys thickshake hasnt helped much
GOD...i need to stop eating so much CRAP
crap that i dont even like..i only eat it coz its convinient and theres nothing to eat at home *sigh*
DRIVING lesson tomorrow..in the rain..lol
fun..
=]
my aim: to be a better driver than tim XD
haha
so tiered...i dont wanna watch this concert anymore..its making me sleepy..but gran wont enjoy community *sigh*
anyway im out..ill figure it out.
maybe dye my hair now
x
