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Moi.
Basics.
Name: Andrea J
D.O.B: 04.02.91
Age: 22 years old
Nationality: Australian
Heritage: Chilean
A Life Worth Living.
Musac.
Tuesday, March 30, 2010
11:16 PM
goooood morning everyone
ANOTHER blog for today. Ive spent a good part of the last hour or two reading/looking up vagina related things =]
lol..blame kurt =] he started this snowball effect. On friday at joel's he informed all of us about vajazzling. A slightly odd fashion statement..its the process of putting little crystals around ur vagina. I pretty much let it go until the night b4 last when i remembered and looked it up. Then my aunty told me about it so we looked it up again haha..then i told tim and he wanted to see too.
Normally i would post the pic up here..but..bleh..just not to offend anyone with virgin eyes. heres a link to a vajazzled vajayjay instead.
Interesting yes? =]
I looked it up and that was the only official pic i could find, the others were of crystals near/on the mons pubis aka the mound of venus ^.^
So it got all up in the media when Jennifer Love Hewwit talked about how she had/has it done on some talk show with a mexican dude :S
andddd this led to other somewhat strange vaginal findings like My New Pink Button. LOL theres a shade called Audry
Audrey - For the woman that loves to be daring, we bring you "Audrey"! This is the deepest, darkest color that we offer to give you a bold burgundy pink color. Perfect for everyone, and your own base color will determine the depth of this shade. Tonight its Show time!!
Bascially its dye for your labia..apparently it looses its colour eventually :S so this temporary dye makes it more pink for a few days. Comes in different shades..odd
Or the yoni massage...lol i was intrigued when i first started reading the article..but then I realised this is less massaging and more..foreplay LOL..but a very nice guide that guys or lesbians may find useful
and the usual, shaving into shapes stuf..but meh.
and vaginal piercing. The image is of a piercing mould..so a hunk of plastic..if that makes u less weary to click it ^.^
hmm..yer piercing looks too painful :S staying away from that yet..i still do appreciate a nice prince alfred
oh wow thats creepy..just came across a corset piercing on a lovely ladies mons pubis.
Here are the different kinds of male genital piecings in cartoon form..u know..so as not to offend =.=
hmm double dydoe is kinda cute ^.^ *shudders* just saw a ver VERY infected penis..eep. ohhhh well better i see it online incase i come across it at work one day *vomits a little inside*
haha speaking of somewhat gross things. SMEGMA lol it was one of the words the kids had to look up in my auntys class and i only knew what it was thanks to kurtis <3 lol and sonjae bringing up her want of an I LOVE SMEGMA shirt..lol. For those of you who are unaware. smegma = dickcheese PLEASE CLEAN REGULARLY UNDERNEATH UR FORESKIN SO THAT WHEN U GET INTO A CAR ACCIDENT AND I HAVE TO LOOK AFTER YOU IN THE HOSPITAL AND I NEED TO CLEAN AROUND UR FORESKIN THERE IS NO CRUSTED OVER SMEGMA. Ive heard a huge buildup of smegma can actually be quite painful for a guy to remove. crusty even :S
eep..
So back to vajazzling..its not all that wierd i suppose. I mean, when i was a kid i used to put crystals on my face (usually around my eyes) and nails. I guess vag is just another part of ur body :S
lol..
and to creep you out even further:
Occam's Razor says: *would you ever do it? Miewing. says: *i dont know...:S loll id need a reason *like...if for some reason ive gone and bought some kinky costume thing *and wanted one last wierd finishing touch
haha.. oh and lol, i came across this. it made me LOL
Recently someone forwarded me an invitation to a cheeky Inauguration Day event called "Shave the Date." As organizer Kristen Chase explains on her Web site, "Show your love for your country, and as you watch our new president take his oath and feel your satin undies against your smooth nether region, you can take pride in knowing you've rid your world of bush once and for all."
anywho IM SORRY. after raging on my friends that they havent blogged for a few days i did the same lol...
I guess..i was busy :S I don't really remember anything..and that is exactly why I still keep the private blog. These days its mostly just pictures of where I am. Helps me remember =] ...except that this stupid house has horrible reception (just 4 my phone) so a lot of the blogs never get sent =.= and they're the most important ones. theyre quick snapshots of how im feeling in the moment. raging. lovey dovey. jelous. upset. confused THEYRE IMPORTANT stupid phone =.=
so Sunday: didnt go to dancing =[ lol..i couldnt b bothered getting the train and bus so i was counting on michelle to take me..but she was busy haha..oh wells. Then there was a very boring and long process of me and mum making guisso. Then ryan slept over. We watched black books, and jewtube, and 5th element. XD i tend to forget how much i enjoy that movie. Really good =] And pumpkin soup...and a confronting and awkward phone call with tim. lol...we decided to say all the things we dont like about each other. I hate doing that..mostly because in the past its caused me a lot of problems. People say they wont take it to heart. but they generally do. Its hard listening to all the shit parts about yourself. But at the same time its a good way to grow I guess. Eventually i slept..and then got up like an hour later *sigh*
Monday: My aunty came and picked me up and we dropped of ryan and her kids at school/station and then drove to the Cambeltown Campus. The morning flew past. I sat in on her MSN CPU class :S lol
*gtg get gran and food*
Im back =] but now i need to help my gran write an email. hang on.
or not. she wants to write a draft first. SO we picked her up from ffield and then went to bonnyrigg plaza..i dislike it there..but not as much as i dislike pemulway or neeta city..anywho. we went to get HAIR DYE ..eep :S my hairs been looking rank 4 ages and mum was like ENOUGH just dye the whole thing one solid colour n when she has money ill go get the streaks done again? maybe..So i got a brown that looks a tad reddy =] Im kinda scared. The colour is probably going to be very different to my natural so now instead of having streaks oh regrowth it will be my whole head =.= Ill never be able to stop dying it :S geh...my hair feels a little dead latly..it use to shine and by all naturally curly and wavey without me needing to do anything..=[
*got caught up looking at pics of when my hair was good* example=
Not the best look...haha, I was in parra with alyssa. I think thats in city beach. I just like how curly my hair is there XD
that was my freedom party at the end of yr 12
wagaya. eww..food was overpriced..probably just that we split the bill and half of us picked at our bowls of rice while the azians loaded up haha..
my hairs alright..mostly im putting it up just coz we both look so happy <3 i miss joely we took this after going to UNSW's open day i think..lol i had to blow dry my hair..and my clothes under the hand dryer in maccas in the city lol...it poured down hard that day. We're in parra using one of the macs in david jones..possibly myer..lol
=]
my mums working night shift again so shes sleeping n didnt have time to drop my gran back home so shes sleeping here i think. We're both in my room and watching this amazing chinese concert. Its contemporary/classical music. its all girls, mostly playing asian instruments. I don't even know what they're called..ill have to look it up. I love music <3 its so fullfilling
One girls playing a Guqin.
seven-stringed zither without bridges, the most classical Listen to guqin music Chinese instrument with over 3000 years of history. The guqin is guqinoften referred to as the instrument of sages for the purpose of enriching the heart and elevating human spirit. Confucius (around 600 BC) was a master of this instrument. In the Imperial China's past, well-educated people of the elite society were expected to master the four arts, namely, the qin (guqin), qi (weiqi, which has somehow been known as "Go" in the West according Japanese pronuciation), shu (Calligraphy), and hua (painting). Being on top of the four traditional arts, the guqin has historically been regarded as one of the most important symbols of Chinese high culture. Unfortunately only small number of people in China could play the instrument, because classical musical education of this kind has never reached general public. Fortunately, the situation has much been improved in recent decades, there have been a growing number of guqin players both in and outside China. Since november 2003, Guqin has been registered as one of the master pieces of the Oral and Intangible Heritage of the humanity by UNESCO
interesting ^.^ Its like a piece of wood that sits on a table and it has strings and they pluck it.
There aare a ouple of pipas
four-stringed lute with 30 frets and pear-shaped body. The instrumentalist holds the pipa upright and play with five small plectra attached to each finger of the right hand. The pipa history can be dated back at least 2000 years and developed from pentatonic to full scales. This instrument has extremely wide dynamic range and remarkable expressive power
wow and a bunch of others that i cant really tell apart.. but they sound amazing =] lots of flutes..and that one that the asian busker guy in the city/cabra always plays XD
lol and theyre all "pretty"..interesting.
SO back to my pointless rambling about my day =] Ive got a bit of the hair dye on the back of my ear to see if i get an allergic reaction..its been there for an hour maybe and i cant feel a thing...but it says to wait 48hrs...meh ill take the risk. ill dye it later tonight dundundunnnnn
I was having one of those days were people look and talk to you more ..dunno y.. lol..the fish n chip guy ran into me again later and asked me if i wanted some calamari :S and i didnt..lol but then he informed me that theyre open on good friday! and to tell EVERYONE i knew...:S coz thats totally not random.. SO instead. Im telling all my readers. KING OF THE SEA in bonnyrigg plaza is open good friday!! so..u know..if u NEED fish n chips on good friday...theres the place to be..:S
Then the wendys guy started chatting to me about the new girl they had yesterday and how she had made so many mistakes that she felt bad and said they could skip paying her for that day...lol :S very friendly i suppose.. then there was the priceline lady...WIERD
:S
ohhh while we were eating i saw these two little CHILDREN...couldnt b older than 8 years old..SMOKING =[ beh it made me sad....theyre so little..WHERE are their parents =.= and dont they CARE!! its kind of that feeling i get when I see pregnant women drinking or smoking. actually no, thats more of a HATRED. fucking idiots. YOUR HAVING A CHILD. wouldnt u try to do EVERYTHING in your power to be as healthy as you possibly can. jfdnvcsdnjkc RAGE =.= and i dont care if doctors say they canhave a glass of wine every once in awhile in the first trimester or watever the rules are. UR POOR BABY i can tell i would be nuts.. id like go insane and go vegan and make sure i was staying away from too much processed foods and eating as healthy as possible and joining all those preggers excercise classes and read every book i could possibly find. ID NEVER give my baby canned baby food..jesusfuckingchrist! your baby needs FRESH pureed vegetables and fruits so they can get as many of the good nutrients as they can get. HBSHBDSDLSJD
and that is always why i don't wanna have a baby. too much work..and stress and insanity. lol...my mum didn't sleep for the first month she had me hahaa...she was too freaked out id die in my sleep..so shed watch me and make sure i was breathing..LOL... THAT is going to be me. she actually did take good care of herself and me at the beginning. but once she went back to work and my grandparents took over everything went down the drain. =[
way too much responsibility..too much to handle. eep
RIGHT back to my days: monday. auntys classes were awesome once again, shes so thorough :S is that how u spellit. So ive learnt how to do insulin infusions XD and i also went to some first year classes where she showed us how to do a bed bath and how to make the bed wih the patient still in it. I already learnt that...ON MY FUCKING PRAC. it was so stressful. shit uni teachers didnt teach me jeck shit =.= or..well they did..but they didnt do a lot of things. some uni people are fucking retarded. they kept asking the same uqestions over n over again about their assessments and how to do it. LIKE FUCK. pay attention! but theyre the same at my uni..people dont seem to understand that if they read the asignment guidleins and the criteria they would know everything!
EVERYTHING and not waste all lesson asking retarded questions that have already been answered. If it says 5 references minimum. then NO that does not mean u can hand in 2. FUCK..its not that hard.
sjabaskdnk;sda
people are idiots =.=
Speaking of, one of the things tim said he didnt like about me was my bitchyness. hmm..well i know, its a problem. Im not very upfront. i am with him though ...now ^.^ lol...it took awhile..but u know, now whenever he annoys me I tell him straight away..usually.
But mums told me she doesnt like it either..and my aunty has too.. its just hard u know...if i told everyone what I hated about them I would barely have any friends :S lol Plus it means people start attacking me =[ haha...which is hard to deal with..but i suppose its important to know.
Ill try....sorta...things are just easier this way =[
hmm being upfront..so hard. but i know a few people like that..although...hmm NO ONE LIKES THEM..lol coz theyre too upfront and people dont like being confronted with their FLAWS
geh
i dunno...we'll see.
im really very tierd. After I got home from uni at around 7pm mums 2 work mates came over..and were being very clucky..and I barely slept the night b4 and the night b4 that. and tim called <3 so I asked him to save me and he came in his white and shinning armour (aka his mums car XD) Went to maccas n then his place =] Which is where my cold started kicking in. and he was a sweetheart n made me TEA =] I dropped when I got home around midnight and woke up at about 1pm today =]
Ive got the rest of the pilot of Community loaded so i can finish watching it..been trying to for 3 days now. its nothing special but tim said i might like it..so here goes. intro wasnt terrible.
oh n i finally got my house key today haha... I still need to do add the 2 other tabs to this blog.. and FINISH UNCHARTED 2..gah, i havent touched the ps3 in ages.
my tummy hurts =[ from the pizza last night and possibly the lemon tea..lol im sure having fish and chips plus a wendys thickshake hasnt helped much GOD...i need to stop eating so much CRAP crap that i dont even like..i only eat it coz its convinient and theres nothing to eat at home *sigh*
DRIVING lesson tomorrow..in the rain..lol fun..
=] my aim: to be a better driver than tim XD
haha
so tiered...i dont wanna watch this concert anymore..its making me sleepy..but gran wont enjoy community *sigh*
anyway im out..ill figure it out. maybe dye my hair now
Im a tiny bit inebriated so I will be triple checking this post b4 i publish it =]
2day was goood. woke up all happy n i sorta forget..its been awhile :S
RIGHT. i wrote the media release for loud tribe n bring it on and tim picked me up n then there was walking to the station in a very short amount of time n obnoxious girls on the train and rowan and st marys and peanut mnms and christians and jameson and odd presents :S like a blanket sized teflon pad, gravy bowl and empty hat box and cowboy shots and DDR XD and guitar hero and tim taking rowan against the wall and determining who had a bonier ass and an amazing beanbagg I WANT ONE and AWESOME sound system and fellow nurse (feather with a H) and messy ribs and tim <3
AH right..that was clairs 21st XD shes one of tims uni friends good night =]
hmm i really enjoy spending time with tim <3
tomorrow: aaron? dancing and then ryan monday: insulin iv and injections prac XD
Morning ladies beh i sorta wanted to post b4 the day was over so i wouldn't have to think harder about the time stamp when I look back on it lol
anywhoooo
today I went to class with my aunty. I never really appreciated or fully understood how smart she is. like wow...shes an awesome teacher. Learnt more in this tut than i have my entire uni life so far. Very informative =] it was about Diabetes Millitus ^.^ pretty awesome. any who ill be attending several, if not all her classes (except for repeats) she does this semster until i go back. Some stuf is new, but theres also some basic skills Ive already covered...and going fru the lecture material, it made me feel a little better. most of the time i feel in over my head. like i dont know anything. but going fru those notes made me realise that I really do know a whole lot more than I did when I first started. This subject mater scared the crap out of me when I first learnt it, but now that Ive done the clinical placements I feel pretty confident in these areas ^.^ Im glad it hasn't all been a waste of time
=]
sooo i was meant to get the bus n meet my aunty at ffield station but the bus never came =[ so I had to wake mumsy up to drive me. she was NOT happy =[ but she did it anyway and then when i got back from uni...i was locked out. well i always am, but i can generally get in fru the windows..but they were all locked too =.= So i had to call mum..and ask her to do something about it. She got pissed told me to get a cab..i didnt wanna..that woulda been like $30 just to get a damn key. So i sat outside for like two hours reading all the nursing stuf my aunty photocopied for me, waiting for mum to show up on her break. bleh
it wasnt too bad..i mean, i got the reading done ^.^ and slept on a chair outside for a bit lol..
anyway she blamed me for not having the key...which is stupid. she has the key, the money to get a new one done and a car to drive to wherever it is that the key needs to be made. She knew I was out, she should have left a window open..beh so she was pissed off...which also meant i knew I couldn't ask her to drive me home from joels 19th.
SOOOO tarin was going to drive me there (tim pulled out last minute...*LOL*) but i had no way back...so i asked mat..never got a reply, told tim i wasnt going and we were gona hang but then i got a call from kurt saying tarin could drop me home too XD....but i 4got to tell tim LOL..so he showed up. and we ended up going to the party anyway. We only stayed for like 2 hours, maybe less, we had to go pick up his family at 9pm and he couldn't drink and i wasnt bothered getting intoxicated and didnt have anything with me and I knew I couldnt sleep over coz mum would get annoyed.
btw..these motherly restrictions, i kind of put them in place. lol she never really says no..she just gets pissed off at me. and thats annoying..id rather avoid her being angry at me...i mean she has a point. she sort of guilts me into doing the right thing. Its not like i cant shut down her anger. Im really good at that. Just keep quiet, listen to her rant on about how ungrateful and shit i am and remain stoic. It frustrates her like hell. Throw in a couple of monotone okays and yeps and Im done. Then if shes yelled at me a lot or has slammed a few doors I usually get an apology from her in about an hour or two. Her guilt sets in, she feels bad and questions her parenting skills.
Its very predictable, but lately i feel shes usually right which is annoying -.-
meh..
so me n tim went to nandos in livo LOOK KURT
XD
haha
i think im still capped :S its shit, so photos ive just reduced a lot to put up here. Jewtube takes ten billion years to load, yet strangely enough megavideo loads pretty fast comparatively. odd. So i was somewhat excited today about a couple of my fav shows being back this week, not too sure what that particular hiatus was about (man there has been a lot lately) and there will probably be another over easter. fuck =.= BUT: supernatural cougar town and not so exciting (but im following anyway) Vampire Diaries
Skins season 4 finished last week. WOW what a disappointment. Im sure everyone agrees, absolutely terrible. I would go into details, but u either don't watch, don't care or might wanna see it. Despite the shitty-hardcore-fail-imaginativejourneys-cliched ending to the season, I will definitely be back for season 5, WHOLE new cast, younger gen. Kurt said he probably wont watch it as it wouldnt be relevant anymore...but really, its not like skins was THAT identical to my teenage development that I couldnt relate to it if a new gen came along lol, that's like saying I wouldn't watch gossip girl because I'm not a millionaire socialite who lives in new york.
on an unrelated topic, i was watching sxephil and he mentioned a new lip gloss on the market that changes to show if the wearer is horny or not. I wonder if it works. I SOOOOO wanna try it lol..its like a mood ring for ur lips. *looks up*
beh would be nice if he'd link the article beh..found it..ggrrrr this isnt a very fruitful search. I WANT THE LIP GLOSS lol... YAY found ittttt interesting:
A NEW lipstick has gone on sale that shows when women are in the mood for sex.
The saucy slap changes from clear to deep crimson as the wearer feels frisky.
It works by reacting with a girl's body chemistry.
And each £12 tube comes with a colour chart so men can work out how randy their partner is feeling.
The Mood Swing Emotionally Activated Lip Gloss was invented in California.
A spokesman for makers Too Faced said: "The colours change depending on your emotional state."
Celeb fans include singer Katy Perry, engaged to randy funnyman Russell Brand.
Dating expert Lorraine Adams said: "This is the ultimate date ice-breaker.
"But using it every day could get embarrassing. Would you really want the man next to you on the bus to know if you're turned on?"
The lippy is available at Boots and ASOS.com.
well it probably doesnt work...u know, since mood rings dont. its just temperature. hmm does that mean girls lips are meant to warm up when their horny :S
LOAD GODDAMMIT LOAD
huh after more reading, its more of a temperature thing, BUT still pretty awesome, I WANT IT. it changes colourrrrr. or..well it changes shades. ..if ur lips change temperature alot..sounds like fun ^.^
oh i got excited there for a second..there was a site that claimed that there was a lip gloss that detected if ur drink has been spiked..but it actually just comes with a little tester thingo..and it doesn't work with most mixers..and possibly only has one use. LAME..interesting concept though.
oh how dissapointing, i read a bunch of great reviews but all the ones on amazon says it sucks =[ ohhhhh welllll
wow im sleepy..but i wanna shift my sleeping pattern back a little. i feel like its corrected itself somewhat...but i would prefer not to be sleepy at night when zeh parties r happening..LOL wow..i was home by 10.30pm tonight..thats kind of sad..but I had a nice night either way so it doesn't matter =]
tims loverly =] he's nice to spend time with
and NOW: SUPERNATURAL and then sleep..or damn..no actually supernatural and then reading kurts fanfic.. oh well..i dont need to b up till late tomorrow clairs 21st in st marys in the arvo =]
ttyl hopefully might actually have pics tomorrow..there was nothing worth taking photos of 2night..except for a bottle of water..LOL...i think that's saying something
eehhhh I got all excited because I was looking at my news feed and saw that nathalie (one of the girls from dancing) had clicked attending to some salsa event and you know, Ive gotten really into dancing lately so I clicked to see. AND WHAM. I ended up on a site that had posters for a bunch of latin dance parties coming up < 3 so excitedddd lol..so hopefully mummy wants to go and we can DANCE. Plus i got more excited because the few places i do know only stick to one style of music (Establishment = Salsa) which is fineeee but a little monotonous after awhile.
that's one of them and there's another place on the harbour sooo XD
andddddd looking at the fliers I saw a different style of dance mentioned so i got even more hyped up so I looked it up ^.^
Zouk To be honest I didn't like it, its too *interpretive dance* mixed with bits of salsa, lifts and bachata. The music is too ethereal for me, although it would be really trippy. Except that at times I hear a really awesome beat and I want them to move way more than what they are...but oh wells. Its still interesting, very sensual, as usual. Heres a vid, there was another more pro one but I like this, it feels slightly less choreographed and the chick is way more intense.
The way she moves and her intensity sort of reminds me of how sex on V was in True Blood...BTW WATCH IT...yes this is aimed at Tim =.= but i reckon everyone should, its not the usual vampire stuf...sure it still has the whole damsel in distress, but shes a bit more kickass that ur typical heroin. Plus the musics alright ^.^ ohh and the accents <3 haha
NOTE: on my 2nd viewing of that vid, Ive decided it would be incredibly hot to move with someone like that ^.^ like dayummm girl =]
anyway back to dancing. I decided I would rather go to dancing than to some random dj's festival thingo on sunday =] ANDDD i finally got tim to move a little haha..BABY steps. Its fun moving your hips. Got somewhat inspired again by belly dancing from phil's vloggity:
she moves so fluidly <3 BAHHH now i wanna take up belly dancing too LOL god she has so much comand over her body JEALOUS much
ohohhhh and just so we're clear. I enjoy dancing, a lot, it makes me happy, I never said I was good at it ^.^
ohohhh and bollywood, and burlesque and ashfbwlekfljwen
meow =]
eeeep, sheri the woman dancing does tribal fusion bellydance and as you can see in phills vid, elijah sells some pretty radtacular stuf in his store CURSE U AMERICA. I love his pants XD Theres some more vids on her website with her wicked costumes XD My favourite:
shes got such perfect proportions too <3 now that's a body i wouldn't mind having XD
*sigh* hmm being a pro dancer sounds pretty awesome right about now lol..
anywho
So today I had to go to loud! tribe early to help out more with Bring it On which is only 3 weeks away! So now our roles have gotten a bit topsy turvy..me and tim have been assigned to First Aid on the day, not too sure what that entails at the moment and if I will be able to still do the stage managing for The Shed. Also have to write an article for Fairfield Champion with one of the girls there ^.^ Got le bus with tim, and got there okay =] and luckily my aunty called and offered to give me a lift home which was out of the blue. Shes really awesome *sigh* Im not good enough to her. She also gave me the money for the driving lessons today and also organised for me to attend a couple of classes at UWS. First ones tomorrow =] Subject: Understanding Alterations in Nutrition, Elimination and Sexuality
XD they're already up to week 4 :S I caught up on week 1 today, n I probably should have prepared for tomorrows lesson first haha so Im downloading the lecture now.
XD
Also joelies bday party tomorrow XD I like being busy =]
oh and I read a bit more of Starts with a Spin, Ive had it for like a year now! lol..and i promise I will finish it by the end of month.. I just realised that's only 6 days..and im not free any of those days..lollll BUT i will do this!..but tonight ill sleep so im rested and useful for the class =]
hmm..I recently got back from little star with tim (nat dave rob albert mick son william & wierd blond fringe guy). Im feeling unexplainably sad...nothing sad has happened :S...the show wasn't sad at all BLEH i dislike misplaced emotions
=[
i don't know whats wrong. its stupid..
anyway recount: yesterday went Jupiter with kurt son n william, had aguile, kurt threw up pink, walked with tim to his place with kurt, he dropped us off stayed a bit. Then me n kurt made muffins 4 mummy & watched rainbow bright, fantasia, swan lake & drew with out feet.
today: dropped off kurt + picked up mums cake, went to lil star. here i am
beh.. =[
oh yer, i did win the tickets to the soothers beach club (thur fri sat & sunday) but im busy all 4 days lol..plus i don't even know the dj's and i listened a bit n they're crap. Only day I could have gone was Sunday if i skipped dancing but i really enjoy dancing lol..so id rather do that =]
I hate being capped =.= I have a bunch of photos to upload and ones that i wanna attach onto these posts =[ it looks too blocky without pics *sigh*
sooo saturday was painfully boring. watched 2 old vhs and one broke on me and the other was just DULL...i havent played uncharted in ages..actually if i still feel like it once im done here THATS what ill do...except i stoped playing because i was getting freaked out by the yettis..lol meh
SO due to sleepyness and failed sleeping patterns i didnt get to bed till about 7am on sunday morning and got up at 11.30 to get ready for dacning. Michelle was running late and was freaking out but i got her to calm down..lol it was a latino thing anyway. Its impossible for it to start on time haha... So the caderona was pretty much epic fail =[ BUT the cumbia which was the one we practiced since the begining turned out great =] There was lots of waiting around, horrible makeup and stiff costums..which werent very flattering. Ill post pics later so u can laugh at me ^.^
Then eventually got home, waited till 4ever and finally left (with Abraham too) to pick up kurt n we went to Fairfield Showgrounds for the Chilean Earthquake fundraiser thingo. Had the chorizo, as was promised to kurt, lol im pretty sure that was the main reason he came XD but the music was really good (compared to chilean fest) there was a pretty good DJ at one point, but man the MC's never shut up =.= So we danced till forever. and my gran worked there all day so she got some tickets to go see some senior's week gala concert. So she asked me to come along XD
we were both dead but we made it into the city, show was 10.30am...it was kind of...crazy. lol..seeing as it was seniors week..and an event especially for them. it was PACKED..like...i was THE only person there out of maybe 3000+ people in the audience who was under 50 years old..lol and watching them walk into the entertainment centre was pretty funny..ive never seen so many old people in one place haha...theyre cute, they all wear the same things and have the cute granny haircuts..lol I couldnt help but think if we all got gasses inside the centre we could significantly reduce the whole aging population dilema...LOL...i knowwww i knowww its mean. plus these are the useful old people who still have a lot of ummf in them ^.^ lol thats still harsh...beh, any way XD the show was REALLLLLY awesome. It was a naratted cabaret performance thing, but they used a bunch of well known songs and linked them together to make a story. And there was a few french songs <3 and corsets, and awesome broadway type dancing and 1920's hair and lovely costumes and a freeking insanely good gypsy band <3 I should really look into them more, i realllllly love that style of music and i dont hear it nearly enough. They were called Monsieur Camembert...im TRYING to load some of their stuf on youtube, hmm the concerts programs blurb about them makes them sound pretty famous...hopefully theyre stuf is just as good as these covers. They made them really special. BEST version of Money Money Money by ABBA <3 eeeeeh the sax and the violin and the according rahhh and the flamenco guiatringgg ohohhh and possibly my favourite, the double bass *drools* Thyere voices were amazing, very raspy at times and deeeeep, a bit Tom Waits-ish at times, but only when they were growling. huh theyre from sydney..lol thats odd, the only 3 gypsy bands i know are from sydney. interesting.
ohh here:
but yis it was fun =] and FREE lol, and then I took her to star bar and we had lunch nice day..but man we were dead tiered from the long day b4. Then there was shopping but i was asleep in the car for most of that. and thennnnn my day got even better coz i got a surprise visit from timm <3
so we just hung out =] and now im hungry again *sigh*
i wanna upload picssss its seriously getting annoying AND OMG
fail today: i had a missed call from Nova =[ I had entered a bunch of their competitions the other day..and im pretty sure the call was to tell me I had won a 4 day festival pass for this weekend but nooooo i didnt hear the phone so i didnt answer and i guess they must have given it to someone else because i got no emails =[ They drew the winners this morning and i totally 4got to keep my ears open for it. beh..oh wells i didnt like/know any of the dj's playing. Only thing is that i think there was also a hotel package included for two which would have been nice...poop
=.=
lame anyway mums bday on wed, maybe going alice in wonderland tomorrow with her MAYBE i gota see what she wants to do when she gets back tonight
Im going to throw up the sloshed contents of my stomach if I dont eat soon. WHY is it that 9/10 times there is nothing to prepare a meal with in the stupid house.
gah
anyway....onto something else.
I'm late, I'm late for a very important date No time to say Hello, Goodbye I'm late, I'm late, I'm late
well thankfully im not late XD so no probs there hazza! butttt i still would like to see Alice in wonderland in 3D at the imax. only thing is. So does mummsy and she hasnt been to the movies in forever...mostly coz she hates everything anyway BUT she whines when I go and she says I never take her...SO ill make her go this week. If anyone is still interest in seeing said movie. COME with. it will most likely be on mon/tue or wed =] So let me know if you want to come watch a movie with my MOTHER and myself at the imax ^.^
beh im also annoyed that im CAPPED. ...ive never been capped. WHAT IS THIS. Especially when they bullshit and say ohhhh ur on an unlimited plan..when really they mean u have 20Gb a month + another 20GB off peak. thats HARDLY unlimited. anyway. Problem is I dont know when it gets reset and to check I need my username and password..but i 4get it :S GRRRR...and the bill is nothing to go by because theyre wacky
anyway onto the fun stuf XD
yesterday was a veryyy pleasant day. During the day I went to Wattamolla beach with stef and michelle XD and it was lovely and relazing and yay. Then in the arvo...i was pretty dead but went to Michaels party anyway. which was also a success YAY
Yesterdays ..brb..im starving..im gona call for pizza *sigh* i dont know why i bother trying to order online it never works and wastes time beh anyway
So it was good, first time tim met matty and mikel XD and it went well. lol I miss matty OMG my shot glas.... WHERE IS IT ahhh fcuk. lol excuse to go to mikels placeeee also he STILL has my sleepingbag haah
but yis it was nice....i did feel awkward at times...i dont know if i was the only one...i just had the whole..alex should be here..thing looming over my head. Plus the fact that...I hadnt seen most of these people in a very long time, and then I saw them all at alex's funeral...it was just wierd. all I could think about..at times..was that the last time I saw all these people was at his funeral....crying..and upset...I felt guilty for having fun =[
*sigh*
We played I never...lol which really, Im kinda over playing ahhaa...especially since it becomes more of a bragging tool about ur sexual exploits. lol...and I don't particularly care whos done what, and it becomes a whole lot less interesting with this crowd haha..coz i know theyre up for everything and anything and have most probably already been there and done it all. lol
We had some lovely punch that I believe will have everyone pooping green today XD haha
and matty got us shot glasses from finlandddd and we all had a shot of his very taste and extremelly cheap liquer. 30c i think he said. THINK OF THE POSSIBILITIESS 30fuckingcents. anyway. twas lovely. and hahahaa matt and kurt spouting random spanish phrases. Im so proud <3
lol...
carl and tim's dead baby jokes round adam mikels and ladywithnicebreasts skinny dipping seppi and his whipp cream dispenser ^.^
good night
first time in a very long time since i get that messed. lol..First time i enjoyed drinking whisky too. except it was called Jameson..so that was a little offputting ahhaa..still have some left XD
Got home pretty early, dropped of kurt n tim, stayed awake till about 4am sobering up b4 i went to sleeep coz everything was spinning, so i had a bottle of water and today im fineeee. except for the random boughts of hunger and stomachpitt but that's probably because i havent eaten since like 6pm yesterday which was a packet of chips..lol SO HEALTHY *sigh*
only down side to it all. was that i couldnt wake up properly till about 12...and it was just too late and i felt too throwyupish to go into the city and yell and walk in the heat. so no rally. which i feel increadibly guilty about =[ poop
POTO TIME...except i hardly took pics at mikels coz i was having too much fun. but plenty at the beach XD: lol i just looked at the beach photos for the first time. its such a beautiful place <3
ahh i just remembered im CAPPED...does that mean i wont b able to upload these argh.
ahh taking too long ill upload them later when im back up. kay well foods here tata. x
Update: pics
<3
lol shes so good at climbing, god i love this beach
in zee bushes
Note: I had to shrink these to make them load =[
St Patricks Day Party:
seppi and kurt <3
rofl matty and kurt in fits of laughter over their spanish conversations <3
I HAVE RABENS ON MY FEET the world is closer to ending.
for those of you who don't understand. rabens = lads ..sorry i know im stereotyping..but eww. they look, sound and act dirty but ehh watever...im sure theyre not all the same.
I got them because I needed dancing shoes, and marrissa said either jazz or rabens. i was looking for real dance shoes in livo but it closed down :( mehh..at least i can shuffle in these =P hahahaha
oh and btw they are amazingly comfy :S
soooo todayyyy: woke up 1pm missed the maybe driving lesson which wasnt even booked. made pasta. stef came over. mum came back from work, we went to livo, met up with tim, got a quote on my hair, got le shoes, got a new ps3 game for mumsy, ate, dropped off tim, got annoyed and frustrated over how complicated a simple beach trip became and then watched makeup tutorials and stuf =]
I just aquired Cage The Elephants new album...first listen..ive heard 3 songs so far, they're okayish...i mainly got it for Aint no rest for the Wicked..lol i couldnt help skipping ahead =] lol not to be a nerd or anything but I heard it because its in the intro for Borderlands (game), it has interesting graphics..its sorta kool. but i havent played..just watched tim, it looks too difficult lol
SO my hair. i went into some random hairdresser and the owner was a bit of a dick and told me what i wanted..ive never had that happen. He wants me to get my base colour done in a burgundy plum colour + the red foils. Which is $60 extra..but u know its actually really cheap. Ive payed $250 just for wash and full head of foils at FMK...they dont do an AMAZING job..but theyre good, and reliable lol.. and this place was $200 for wash, blow dry, tint, full head of foils + toner + moisturising treatment.
but i didnt like his pushyness... and Tim and Uly said just to do the whole thing red...which I was considering earlier in the morning...and then when i got home i remember IM NOT BOVVED ive let my regrowth get this bad, can u imagine THAT with my WHOLE head..it would b disgusting. and im really scared of dying my whole head and killing my hair...but i mean, the other streaks are doing fine, my hairs really healthy. hmmm..although i still sorta wanna do my whole head..at least once in my life..even if its this long..^.^ I need a cut as well..but im gona skip the side fringe...it was the first time id ever gotten a proper one, and it only looked good after it was blow dried the first time. otherwise it went all poofy and made me look very 80's (which is by far my most hated decade)
pics:
lol it was kind of odd...
his chiken was cold =[ so we sent it back =]
im really tiered...:S
so my whole head red?? what do u think? I don't think ive ever seen anyone with hair as thick and long as mine died completelly one colour...WHAT DO U THINKKK i need to know.
ehehe Im in such a great mood...all day ^.^ I woke up at 8am and its been sunshine and lollipops all day haha...total Jack Johnsen morning (btw he's kinda cute...u know who else is pretty rad Mystery Guitar Man )
My day just got a tiny bit better because mum got the vhs player working again and she found the vhs Abraham made for me with the powerpuff girls song on it from back when I was a kid <3 he was the best.
Love LOVE LOVE lala LOVE makes the world go around <3
seriously, ever since I heard this years ago Ive been dying to harmonize it with someone..or someones, i need TWO people. This will TOTALLY make my day. SOOOO any takers?? We made Potter Puppet Pals work and that was like 5 voices! we can sooooo do this XD
Just incase you've been living under a rock all these years, heres "The Mysterious Ticking Noise"
Not only did we do all the original voices but then we altered it and put in our names <3 ehehe that was so fun. yr 12 LOL too bad dibby never filmed it =[
ehhh so happy. I have too many fun things to do lollll like post the pics me and tim took today hehe or add two NEW tabs to this blog or go watch old VHS vids I have LIKE: Fantasia Rainbow Bright Baby Songs Secrets of War Mix vids of cartoons my grandad recorded for me <3 or orrrrr play uncharted orrrr zumba!
ohhh the posibilites XD
I felt good today, cooking and cleaning and washing and sweeping and tim and napping XD
heres some pics:
<3
lol..nice face =P
my favourite XD
naww isnt he handsome..mwahaha I had to get in a mirror shot..LOL i dont think he realised why its funny.
it was fun BUT HE STILL WONT DANCE ZUMBA WITH ME grrrrr ill post the rest of the pics up on fb =]
sooo this weekends looking to be eventful which Im really greatful for. I have a lovehate relationship with a busy social calendar =]
friday: st patricks day party at the mchughes but Im tossing up between that and going to hellfire with my aunty..only thing is if i go to hellfire..its kind of a big commitment lol..it means I wont get home till around 8 in the morning..haha she parties hard ^.^ maybe I can do both..hmm iunno she said shes not too sure yet but she wants to go. its SEVENTEEN years of hellfire =] speaking of my aunty, shes booked my first driving lesson, shroomyblessher! mum has had heaps of days of and so have I but noooo shes always too busy to take me and lessons arnt in the budget at the moment..ive had my L's since ..iunno yr 12 sometime..a bit over a year i guess..and Ive only done 3 hours GAH.
Sat: Rally for Same Sex Marriage Equality. 2010 is officially the year of action! So there will be lots of events on this year, Ive gone to the last two rallies since last year and I really can't understand how a modern society can't grant all its citizens the same civil liberties, especially on something so simple as this. There are NO down sides, oh here - funny star studded vid on the topic based on Proposition 8 from 2009 JACK BLACK is in it XD:
(obviously more relevant to the states but u get the point)
I JUST DONT UNDERSTANDDDDD grrr its frustrating. SO PLEASE come and show ur support =] Sure, there's a good chance that nothing will change under this government but every movement had to start somewhere and one day it'll happen. I mean, there's been a few tiny steps forward so far but the more noise we make and the longer we keep this up, the better the chances are that we finally get change.
SO COME MOTHERFUCKERS I don't care if your not gay. This is about CIVIL AND POLITICAL RIGHTS for ALL
also after the rally Im hoping to make it to this:
Obama & War: Change Once Believed In It is a common misconception that President Obama is a man of peace. Being awarded the Nobel Peace Prize certainly helps this image.
Yet, his presidential campaign trail pledge was to refocus US military power on the border region of Afghanistan and Pakistan. With troop surges, mounting innocent deaths, the Afghanistan war expanding into Pakistan, bases in Iraq and Colombia, and continued threats to Iran, it's clear that Obama doesn't mean "change"; the Bush doctrine continues.
Sunday: DANCE performaces!!!!..lol Marissa still hasn't told us if were performing at Fairfield Showground as well as ashcroft..i kinda hope not, and I doubt it anyway. By the time we get there from Ashcroft it'll b kinda late and from past years most Chilean things stop the performances around 4ish and start with the public dancefloor. Either way I want to go to the Showground, its a Fundraiser for the earthquakes in Chile.
Im still dealing with it all...I find it slightly odd how much its impacted me..I know I have family there and friends and its expected but its just all too much. The damage that's been done is dumbfounding and the quakes just wont stop, we still can't reach panta and it scares me. It scares me that there are parts of the country that are in complete and utter anarchy...STILL. People are desperate, and as a result their humanity is being tested. Like in every major disaster around the world, people have reached rock bottom, people are taking advantage of one another in the worst of times. Ive heard some shocking stories of rape and murder over things that right now, I would consider insignificant, like food. I cant fathom that kind of desperation and the scary thing is that it seems to always happen when people are in these sorts of situations...it confuses me and it says a lot about the social constructs we create to keep society out of complete and utter chaos. Its all so depressing...
At least Ive also heard good things, like neighbors banding together to protect each other at night and sharing and sticking together. Its just so...god I cant even explain how horrible this makes me feel. That these people have to fashion weapons out of the remnants of their broken homes to protect their women and children from getting gang raped. or how utterly devastating it is to know that a lot of these people stealing and killing and raping aren't even from the quake stricken areas. There are GROUPS of people who have come in trucks from other citys to STEAL...i just don't understand how anyone could do something so miserably low.
god =[
I was reading and found this really interesting article, about how the internet has been used to help out in all this mess. Im really impressed and sort of proud of these people who came up with these ideas. I guess it restores some hope that there are also good things happening.
Social Media Responds to Chile's Earthquake: We Can Help
As Chilean and international rescue forces work through the rubble cause by the massive 8.8-magnitude earthquake that hit near Concepcion, Chile's second-largest city, users of social media the world over have undertaken their own rescue measures. Twitter, Facebook, and several of Google's properties aren't trivial, now. They're life-saving, informational tools. An eye-rolling bit of gossip about one of those Kardashian girls can explode through the Web in minutes--and now, news about those in Chile is traveling over the same digital pathways, with the same speed, reaching the same vast amount of people. These are a few ways social media is being used in the wake of the quake.
so on the topic of downers. I couldn't sleep last night =[ I couldn't stop thinking about Alex...I've tried to block it all out but the second I was lying in bed, not tiered, not distracted by something ive found to help me shut the memories and feelings out, everything just surfaced =[
whoops I posted this to my other blog by accident:
Tuesday, March 16, 2010,
aye, woke up like an hour ago...
lol, i blog a lot =] haha...I've been compulsively blogging and writing in journals since I was in year 9ish. haha..in some ways its better than talking to people in real life, and no one HAS to read this, and if I want them to know something I can direct them here instead of having to explain it. It realllly helps when I need to get my message across about why I did or didn't do something or why I feel a certain way without getting interrupted or loosing my train of thought.
It actually all started in year 6, my teachers got me to see the counselor when my granddad died, i only saw her like twice and it was pretty much me telling her how it went down and then her letting me cry. Its not like I was acting out or anything, they sent me to her the second they found out he had died..but meh. The point is she told me to start writing out what I felt, and I ignored her, but it always stayed with me and eventually i did use it when I was feeling like shit and it helped so much =]
Now I blog about 3 or 4 times a day :S sometimes more. I have another blog which is connected through my phone, that's my private one, where I occasionally write really long entries when I'm down or pissed off at someone. At the moment its mostly photos and captions, it helps me keep track of where ive been and who with. I think a big part of blogging to me is proving to myself that I have a life. Its silly but sometimes I forget, and the pictures help me remember that and it makes me feel better. I just feel like I need people to understand who I am, its retarded...oh and its kind of a courtesy thing. I don't think anyone is as pedantic as me about it but I HATE not knowing what's going on in peoples head. It really frustrates me, so this is out there in the open so that if anyone is as crazy as me, they can just read and know. =]
MOVING ON.
I was originally going to write about my dream and how I felt shitty, but I don't feel it so much anymore because I got distracted =] BUT just so that I remember everything I feel, ill write anyway. Basically the dream was a repeat of the new years mess with Tim. In the dream I had taken him to a party and he acted the same as he did on new years and didnt care. I woke up angry =[ I know it was just a dream, but Im obviously still not over the insignificant actions of that night. Its so retarded because Tims been SO so awesome since then and Ive put it at the back of my mind and haven't thought about it since he was in Salamander Bay. I guess I felt like he never fully understood how much it affected me or even why I left early that night. The next day we did talk and "resolved" it...but really it was me just trying to forget and him being sorry. Thing is, i don't think he really knew what he was sorry for =[
He left for salamander bay the next day pretty much and we never got to talk about it again, I didn't want to ruin his holiday with my crap and then once he had come back it was just to late to bring it up again and I was really doubting myself. I still sort of do, was i over reacting :S I don't know =[ But the whole time he was on holiday I was killing myself inside, not understanding why he did that or what it meant about his feelings towards me. Over analyzing everything =[ Then there was the whole, has he really changed :S and if he did change..was it because of me...and if it was because of me then I feel like shit. I don't want to be the reason someone changes they way they are, I feel like it will eventually lead to them resenting me and the whole debate running in my head about accepting people for who they are. It's still a huge mess in my head =[ I dont want to be that girl *sigh*
So basically Ive just tried to forget about it, and its pretty much worked =] Except for days like this...where I don't think straight and make myself feel worse by doing stupid things like REMEMBERING and looking at photos that I know piss me off and make me feel worse.
beh... the silly thing is that it was probably all brought on by a harmless hypothetical discussion with uly and tim yesterday about who me and tim would date out of each others friends once we broke up. It isn't the first time we've talked about it. Its also something Ive never come up with, I know how insanely jealous it makes me and Tim should know too...because we've talked about it heaps of times. BUT NOOOOO he has to go there -.- I hate that I'm the only crazy one in this relationship.
This game he likes to play, is almost as much a good idea as the infamous yr 9 game of "lets say something we hate about each other" in turns. God, that did NOT end well and believe me that was NOT my idea. =.=
its all fucking retarded. grrr I hate you all *sooks*
anyway on a completely unrelated topic. I was thinking about maybe doing some sorta oldschool girly sleepover at my place...only thing is mum tends to get pissed off when large groups of people stay over for no reason...hmm or not. watevs. Theres a few bdays coming up =] which also means parties ^.^ so yayyy
anyway. tata, Im going to go stretch and zumba a bit, my hips and thighs are hella sore from dancing.
ps: I still love tim, Im just being stupid and Im not in angry mode any more
Im not bored..but Im killing time with pointless things, I spent some time answering formspring and am now stuck thinking about how seductive Jessica Rabbit is. I haven't watched Rodger Rabbit (the movie) for years, I didn't really like it back when i was a kid but i definitely did not remember her being so damn...SEX on a stage-esque...LIKE DAYUMMM GURL
like..fuck. I find it hard watching her...so I tried llooking for a human version..and couldn't find a good substitute...or, well one that wasnt photoshopped but thats as close as it gets:
I also have a pic kurt linked me to of a woman who got surgery done to look like her..and i was going to post it..but i don't want her hideous face disgracing my blog. like WOW shes an ugly mofo..but anyway..
Tangent 1: Cosmetic surgery: I'm confused by it..when I hear that beautiful young girls have it done or want to i think theyre retarded and crazy. But at the same time there's a few things I wouldn't mind having done lol...but then I think..fuck it. I can hardly b bothered to dye my regrowth..I don't think i care enough to pay $10 000 to have something done
Tangent 2A: Burlesque dancing: I've always been intrigued by it..as is pretty much everyone who sees it. I would LOVE to take classes (i was going to write down..for the fun of it..but fuck that, it would be SO friggen awesome to perform for an audience..but i know i would never be dedicated enough to get good at it). I know there are a few places in sydney but they're expensive and I don't think I could be bothered going all the way into the city for anything. Plus feeling intimidated by the pros is another thing..I'd feel totally out of my depth..but I suppose a lot of people would. I think that's going on my goals list: take burlesque dancing lessons for at least a term..one day =]...before im 25
Tangent 2B: Suicide girls I haven't had much exposure but they intrigue me...some of them are really hot..then there are others who are just feral. I still think it would be kool to do a photoshoot for them..lol but theres some massive body issues there..and 'letting go' problems..but if it wasn't for that, id b totally up for it XD
Tangent 3: Pale skin vs Tanned: I generally dislike pale skin...Ive always associated tanned with sexy. White=ghostly..and that's not hot. Plus I link pale beauty with elegance and class and...stiffness..which to me is boring. pretty and stuf..but boring. Tanned and sexy is FUN to me, and beach, and curvy and just...drool worthy
lol I put this together like 3 years ago coz i couldn't be bothered saving so many files and I was bored.
god shes stunning <3 Adriana Lima, one of the Victoria Secret Angel's from BRAZIL If I could look like anyone..(just similar really) it would be her ♥ although when i first saw her on fashiontv i was awestruck and dumbfounded by her...now im kinda used to it and dont find her that show stopper but she still is fucking stunning. ^.^
And as for real life, THE most beautiful girls Ive known have been Dominique and Virania (both girls from highschool who moved schools b4 we finished), both amazingly beautiful and they only seem to be getting more stunning. LOL i would put a pic up but THATS just stalkerish *shifty eyes*
and yes both smoldering tanned and curves in all the right places.
Oh and recently, some girl from hot damn who was with harb and them. Man she was beautiful. She had that whole, blond aussie glow thing happening with the blue eyes and stuf...but yer not pale..just "white".
ohoh and the only other white girl Ive thought was stunning was a girl at hellfire the first time I went. Seriously soooo sexy, in an edgy way..u know, being hellfire an all. Lol i probably liked her more coz she was so confident and her outfit was way hot. She was wearing black distressed hipster skinnies? or leather or something with a lot of texture..and zippers and chains and spikes, and a push up leather bra with lots of zippers. She had short honey blond hair that was styles into a kinda moehawk that leaned forward and onto her face a bit..sorta like this:
and great body/bone structure, oh and she had her boy on a leesh =] plus she was so cocky and..flirty and rahhh. She was a showstopper =] great aura
anyway ENOUGH
I found this and I haven't done a quiz for awhile so here goes
1. Do you think relationships are even worth it? totally
2. Fallen asleep at work/school? i dozed of a bit in yr 11 and 12 but not really
3. Does anyone like you? yes
4. How old do you want to be when you get married? i dont want to get married but I do wanna have found my life partner by the time im 30
5. Do you like when people play with your hair? no, they tangle it or pull it or make it yuker. scratching my head is nice though
6. First thing you do when you wake up? reach for my phone half asleep and check fb
7. What would you name your future daughter? dunno but i like wolfgang lol..and darius..and DRAVEN
8. Ideal boyfriend/girlfriend? someone who makes me laugh, thinks my lameness is funny and someone i can connect with
9. Honestly, can you describe your underwear? why do u have to talk to me like that. jeez i was going to answer truthfully its not that hard -.- damn attiutide. theyre black boylegs with white scullncrossbones and love hearts
10. Would you date someone right now if they asked you? no coz im with tim
11. Have you ever been back stabbed by a friend? yeah
12. Think back in April, how was your love life then? uhm..LOL i was either in the process of hating on jamo and going fru several attempts to break up with him, or single and soaking up my freedom as much as i could.
13. Anyone you're giving up on? not particularly..ive stopped caring..i guess that means I already gave up
14. Has anyone ever told you they liked you in a really sweet way? no..no ones ever told me they liked me (as in had a crush on me) lol how sad...or i dont think they have...i cant remember..i suppose if they had I would remember.
15. If someone liked you right now, would you want them to tell you? hell yes.
16. Have you ever walked on the beach at night? heaps of times
17. Fact about the person you're falling for? hes is a pretty shocking driver unless his mums in the car or Im nagging him about it LOL ILY<3<3<3
18. Have you ever had your heartbroken? nah upset sure but not totally devo
19. Do you think age matters in relationships? nope, as long as ur both in the same stage of ur life which is what makes it difficult I suppose. same interests and mentality help..oh and not being a pedo ^.^ just wanting the same thing from the relationship.
20. Do you have any bruises? on my legs
21. When/Why did you last cry? lol i tear up...ALOT like, im starting to think there's something really wrong with me.....but they never end in actual tears..lol but the last time I teared up was today at ulys recounting my exploded budgy story
22. Do you believe in second chances? sorta, i mean i give them a lot, more than twice...im a bit of a pushover...but sometimes enough is enough
23. Would you rather hear the painful truth or a happy lie? depends on the situation, sometimes i just wanna hear what will make me happy, coz im not an idiot i know what the truth is..or that im being a sook. just humor me!...but if its something small like u look like shit. PLEASE do not just criticize. If your going to say anything negative at all U MUST be able to offer the person/me a better alternative..otherwise uve just shot me down and now i have to go around knowing I look like crap all day
24. Would you cry if you found out you were pregnant? yessssssss, Ive had meltdowns just thinking about it LOL
25. Who would you want to be tied to for 24 hours? no one...but there are people i wouldn't mind being tied to for that long coz i spend that much time with them and dont get sick of them. Mainly tim though coz at least that way its less awkward with toilet situations...lol its disturbing how many times ive walked in on him in the bathroom..LOL oh wells =]
wow that took AGES..its now 3.30am
right and recap of my day: went to get butter with mum, got told off for being shit, was worried about tim and his whole family drama, he picked me up, we went n got uly n then drove him home and hung out there, watched some old bgrade horror movie, The Wizard of Gore..? i think thats wat it was called, and tim dropped me back. Me and mum went to mickeys to get something n then went mounties *stabbyripstabstab* and then internets till now
anywho..im going to say my goodbyes on msn and schleep
lol..i just made a formspring to prove to kurt that no one ever asks anything interesting
Its always: why are you so awesome!?!?!? <3 x <3 or why are you so fet or something equally as unimportant
and really, if you don't have the balls to say something important to my face then fuck off, were not in yr 7 anymore. Plus I like to think Im pretty low on peoples radar, therefor there is no point asking me anything because you probably are an old acquaintance that I don't talk to for good reasons. oh and i don't have issues with anyone...i don't think :S so its not like there's going to be any retarded anonymous little fights going on.
Take note: I'm addressing people I think don't exist in my world...lol I may have lost my mind =]
i just got a massive surge of energy (that Ive been lacking ALL day) from one of the few things that get me happy and excited, DANCING
eeeeeeehehe <3
Mostly Im excited because I 4got I have a long flowy skirt which means I can practice the cumbia we're performing THIS sunday!! =] Plus I found the song we're dancing to which makes things a hell of a lot easier. So i got all WEEEEEEEEE and started dancing and I got more excited because I could finally see myself in a mirror (we dont have any at the hall) and Im doing it right XD yayyyyy ...or, well...better than i thought i was doing it hehe. This has seriously made my day, lol..not sure why. But it all makes me happy
Plus I found a really nice performance of this song...apparently its really famous and all the groups dance to this at some point :S
lol...YES that's what the dance is like...to be honest, I was pretty embarrassed by this style of dancing, Ive always thought it was really daggy and stuf...but who cares =] its fun and makes ur arms INCREDIBLY sore..which is always a good thing ^.^ and its really easy to pick up.
We had dancing this morning and had to stay back an extra hour to get our main routine finished since it was our last lesson b4 the performance. It was good, lol 5 hours of dancing <3 I was also kinda ..proud of myself LOL..that sounds stupid admitting it out loud..but i was, so shhh, but yes I was proud because some of the girls who've been dancing for a couple of years decided to perform one of their old routines for sunday (as well as the main routine). So while they were practicing me and michelle got bored, joined in, picked up the routine and are now going to be performing it on sunday as well XD
It was good ^.^ we also did some more..hip work, I really don't know what to call it, were doing it to samba music but what we're doing looks nothing like samba. Marissa says she's teaching us the groundwork for it with these moves so im excited. Like seriously, I LOVE samba, the rhythm is infectious and the dance is beautiful and crazy fast....plus who doesn't love sequin covered bikinis and feathers. BRING ON CARNIVALE ......lol (might wanna scratch out the bikini part..BUT BRING ON CARNIVALE)
oh and we also did some partnered work which i love, moving cohesively with another person, to the beat, in SYNC, its amazing. Although me and Michelle failed at being partnered together haha i just couldn't pick up the boy part, but I got to dance with seb and we had a nice little thing happening ^.^
ehhh im happy ^.^
i kinda dont wanna talk about the rest of my day because i was in a pretty shitty mood and I don't want to loose my buzz...but ehh, may as well. I was bored and tired...and was getting paranoid about being boring..and how that affects people wanting to spend time with me...but ehh watever. Im still excited about dancing XD lol
and just quickly: jolia and kurt were over last night but julia went home around midnight and stefalala came ^.^ and we all just hung out and zey left in le morning. Didnt do much, just youtube, geekology, why the fuck do you have kids dot com and stuf like that =]
anywho tata children, I think I may possibly go to bed now, Im kinda sleep deprived this week with the 3 sleepovers and last nights chat that lasted till about 6.30am lol
im STARVING. and Im up. and showered. and DRESSED and everything. and its only 5.37pm!
noms! i have food =]
kay well, id like to start of by saying ive been in a haze for the last couple of days, you know, not sleeping and staying awake at night and kurt sleeping over and then hanging with tim and being paranoid about being broken up with and just CONFUSION to the max. Plus its not like ive been doing much these days so its gotten even more confusing.
so basically. kurt came over wednesday night. crashed here. we worked very hard on a set of bananna and honey muffins that we had for breakie the next morning..or u know whatever meal u'd like to call it (3pmish). Uhm briefly, hanging with kurt involved: cartwheels, house, big bang theory, candy, muffins, butter, chicken nuggets, maccas (apparently), bolt, squid, glowing things, oranges, lad bag lady, makeup tutorials, optical illusions, algebra, kurt peeing in my backyard. and this: HE IS BRITTISH! YOU CAN SEE IT IN HIS MOUSTACHE ! i remember saying that and being highly amused..i cant remember what show we were watcging OMG yer we had looked up Burj-Al-Arab in Dubai (only 7 star hotel in the world) and were watching a youtube commercial presentation thingo on it. and lol..one of the chefs looked british and I got increadibly excited.
tim has pointed out that I have a hardon for accents. I believe he is correct XD
BLAH i had finished my post and was checking to see if everything was aligned AND IT KILLED HALF MY POST!
BLEH there was so much there. uhm..recap:
kurt left friday, shortly followed by tim picking me up to hang out. I spent most of yesterday ubber paranoid and being passive aggressive. I was pretty much waiting for tim to break up with me..but long story short were still together, and he promised to drive better when hes angry =] ...hmm im realising i probabaly should have promised to do something differently too..heh..lol
uhmm AH yes. Tims at devin townsend tonight. with his BOYZ ...BAAHAHAH anyway hopefully they have fun XD...and quickly summing up, i aquired a couple of his albums and to be honest i didnt find him all that good, I enjoyed Ziltoid the omniscient coz it was fun but his new direction is wayyyyy different. its too...mellow. although i really like the song 'Ki' ..but mostly i find that album depressing and not in the good way.
also Emielie Autumns playing next week i believe? Tim also wanted me to go with him to that BUT we both hnever got tickets and I hated her at the start. she's grown on me and i really like her aesthetic plus i hear she does a good stage show. I also watched a couple of interviews and gained a bit more respect for her =] Although every time I listen to her music it sounds WAY different. And my mind was kinda blown by pheliac the other night..so hmmm. OH WELL still too poor to go and im not bothered going alone even if i had the cash.
and i think my last point was THE BOYS coming over tonight..excpet the boys is no longer the boys..coz we have julia and kurt coming along. lol i miss the oldddd days like back in yr 10 when me matty mikel and joel would hang in my garage =] The group slowly + kurt and -matty and then there was more changes..like ash coming into the picture, people getting busy or legally allowed to drink at bars therefore no longer needing my garage, me going into hermit mode and then..just drifting =[ TIS SAD but these are probably some of the last photos of us b4 more splits and drifting and changing of interests . theyre from early 2008 january =]
haha they really explain the group dynamics
fun times <3
anyway..i feel a little bit..dead now. soooo im going to go play uncharted? or sleep i dont know
Nothing new really, been bored-ish for the last couple of days so I thought Id post some of the vids Ive always found hilarious
hmmm...tims shown me a few vids by some dude on youtube called phill, who doesnt seem to breath when he talks but he's alright, he has new posts every couple of days, comments on new movies, games and just general gossipy pop culture references. Phill De Franco ...might not be correct spelling but the links right ^.^
ohohhh and phil doesnt count as one of the funniest vids ever..i was just trying to favourite the lemon demon vid and then realised explorer had me signed in on mums account..like always. so i went to firefox and TIMS account was signed in -.- so yar.
OKAY wth is going on. Im subscribed to a bunch of people i dont like/have never heard of -.- NOT KOOL like jkimisyellow..wtf ew. or this random..arb looking german guy :S wtf...ALL his vids are in german.. okayyy he's kinda cute ..haha in an artiene way ^.^ <3
huh and this random azn dudes channel
ITS ALIVEEE ish..or squirming :S fuck. andddd wtf at the somewhat hot azn chick trying to act sexy while licking tentacles ....rightio MOVING ON..he has nothing worth watching and is unpleasant to look at.
oh and while looking up asian lesbians I found a song i like XD yayyyy American Dream by Jakatta. GRRRRRRR the comments lied to me..this isnt the song =[Its a song I heard in house once..i think. no actually it does have some of it..just remixed *sigh*
huh i also found a gir i subscribed to that did a few tutorials on how to body/face paint to become a navi...she did an excellent job...not worth keeping on my subscribers list. KABLAM shes dead =] despite being hot
god i LOVE this
im pretty much getting my youtube account up to scratch, i hardly ever favourite things.
ehehe cant i aks you a questionnnn
okay so uhmm also I finished watching Loving Annabell and Imagine You and Me over the last couple of days.
Annabelle is the wise-beyond-her-years newcomer to an exclusive Catholic girls school. Having been expelled from her first two schools she's bound to stir some trouble. Sparks fly though when sexual chemistry appears between her and the Head of her dorm and English teacher, Simone Bradley. Annabelle pursues her relentlessly and until the end the older woman manages to avoid the law.
..sorry if u wanted to see it..it wasnt that great.
I had seen the beginning of loving annabell years ago and never got to see the end. At the time i thought the storyline was really hot..the end kinda just went downhill, there's nothing left after the sexual tension is put to ease. Sonjae figured out what it was called for me and downloaded it and passed it on fru kurt =]
Now this was a better movie =] plus it had some slightly bigger actors, the two leading females are absolutely stunning..mostly the one who thought she was straight..uhm..Piper Perabo, I only really know her from Coyote Ugly and she played a similar role..like all cute and innocent ^.^
interesting i got thrown off onto a tangent and am now watching a documentary called Indie Sex...looks interesting, it has dita vonteese in it (btw i dislike her..i find her increadibly ugly, nice body though..she looks like a cardboard cutout of herself in all her photos, i remember back in like yr 10 or 11 when she came to australia and mica and lori took photos with her. She looked frozen in place in both of them :S)
ANYWAY back to imagine me and you.
Rachel and Heck, long time friends and lovers, finally tie the knot, and during the celebration, Rachel starts a friendship with their florist, Luce. And while Rachel originally intended to match her new friend, Luce, up with her husband's friend, Cooper, she soon finds out that Luce is a lesbian. During the course of their friendship, Rachel starts to question her own sexuality. And though she comes to realize she may have feelings for her new friend, Rachel must decide who she will ultimately find the most happiness with: Heck, her new husband who is also adored by her family, or Luce, who has turned her life and everything she thought she new about love upside down.
It was reallllly cute and sad and <3 I cried a lot haha..but when dont I. I kind of went into a bit of a meltdown when Luce and rachel explain their take on love
Rachel "you don't know, not straight away, It just feels....warm, and comfortable and you hang in there and give it a chance, before you know it your like yeah this is it, it must be love" Luce "I don't agree, I think you know immediately, you know as soon as your eyes....then everything that happens from then on just proves that you had been right in that first moment when you suddenly realise that you had been incomplete and now you are whole"
it was scary. I've never had that feeling of being incomplete and whole..and I don't think it matters..ive had a mix of both to an extent. Ive had those moments where your instantly attracted to someone. I can only really remember having that twice, (and the feeling lasting) alex and tim =]
But Ive definitely also had feelings grow over time, and to be honest, I think that's much more solid than madly "falling in love" with someone the second you meet them. That sort of intensity is bound to fizzle. maybe? ehh what do i know. But I like that your fondness for someone can grow, that has also happened to me twice (tim and jamo). To the point where over time you even find that person more attractive than you did initially, you see different sides to them and still want to stay =]
PS: yes i did spend most of my time with jamo hating on him but there were times he made me happy, and he did seem to care about me, but ultimately he was an idiot in OH so many ways.
so yes, I think that's why im happy with tim =] I was interested the first time I met him way back in yr 10 at the marymac formal, lol even if he was with someone else AND insulted me ^.^ and I got all excited when I saw him that night in hyde park last year...although i thought he was someone else LOL plus now Ive gotten to know him better and I like him even more. lol i could list other reasons why i like him but no need to get sappy haha.. HOORA!
ohh kurtis called =]
also played ALOT of uncharted 2 yesterday it was really fun i got really into it...too into it..lol i cried haha THEY DESTROYED A POOR INOCCENT TIBETEN town because of ME and my stupid search fo chimbala or watever the fuck it is. =[ but its really getting fun i would go play now but im on the phone AND im not allowed to leave my room..or well i can but id prefer not to...mommmmy has company -.-
i think something bit my leg I HATE THIS BUG RIDDEN HOUSE i have a huge lumpy looking swollen thing near my knee and the bottom of my legg is all red and itchy :S
So one day I was hanging out with Kurt and we realised that there are some pretty wacky sayings in the spanish language.
Each Spanish speaking country has their own sayings, metaphors and similies but these are a few that I have collected over the last year or so.
Every time I hear my mum or grandma say a new one I text Kurt XD It has become somewhat of a little tradition for me now =]
Saying: La negrita astuta vende fruta.
Direct Translation: The (Astute, cunning, sly, crafty, fraudulent) cute/little black girl sells fruit.
Meaning: This saying is said as a sort of warning that you are/someone else is a cocktease
Saying: No calientes el agua (si no vas a tomar té)
Direct Translation: Don't heat the water if you're not going to drink tea
Meaning: This is also a sort of warning to someone who is being a cocktease. Kind of like, don't flirt and lead someone on if you have no intention of hooking up with them. It is also a play on words because in Spanish (Chilean at least) the word calentar (to heat) is also used informally as a way to say 'make horny'. So 'estoy caliente' = I'm hot BUT it means I'm horny. If you wanted to say I'm hot (because of the weather) you would say 'tengo calor'
Tongue Twister: Tres tristes tigres trigo trillaron tranquilos tragaron
Translation: Three sad tigers, wheat they threshed (To separate the grain from the straw or husks by mechanical beating), calmly they swallowed.
Tongue Twister:Pedro Pablo Pérez Pereira pobre pintor portugués pinta paisajes por poca plata para pasar por París
Translation: Pedro Pablo Pérez Pereira poor Portugese painter paints landscapes for little money to pass through Paris.
Saying:Buscarle la quinta pata al gato
Direct Translation:To look for the 5th leg of the cat
Meaning: Looking for problems when there clearly aren't any in that situation, so you're over thinking it and overcomplicating yourself.
Saying: Para ser bella hay que ver estrellas
Direct Translation: To be beautiful you have to see stars
Meaning: I'm guessing this is a fairly old saying because my grandad said it to me once, I kind of fell in love with this little rhyme/mantra. It means that no pain is too great to endure in order to look your best, this particularly refers to women having to wear painful shoes (stilettos) because it makes their legs look hot, wearing tight clothing to show off curves, waxing, plucking, dying hair, and I suppose nowadays you could extend that into getting cosmetic surgery. Just to clarify, my grandad wasn't a dick, I remember the saying coming up because we were watching a show with really attractive women and I was in awe of them and he explained that constructed superficial beauty comes at a price =) Oh and if you don't get the imagery, it's based on seeing "stars" when you hit your head/get dizzy, like if you've ever seen the cartoon representation of stars around the head when they get hit.
*To be continued
To Do.
Here's a list of some of the things I would like to do or accomplish or places I want to visit in my lifetime =]
* I have already been there, done that or started to read that but would like to do it again or complete the task
-- The task is completed and I don't feel the need to do a repeat