Sunday, February 28, 2010
3:01 PM
How do i even start...
my minds stuck =[
Adam Plimmer:
Sadly Alexander Burke passed away this afternoon at about 3.10pm (3.15 according to the certificate). He went peacefully. I and close family and friends were with him during his last moments, and its good to know his suffering is over. His memory and life will continue on with his music, art and friends and family. We love you Alex forever xoxoxo
I don't want to get all cliched and annoying..saying he was so special and will never be forgotten and all that stuf...but its true =[
its raining =.= and dreary..and we still can't contact panta in chile to see if he made it through the earthquake =[ its always the way isnt it...
I met alex in 2006, I was sitting in the downstairs food court of parramatta westfields with jayde and rhiannon after one of our usual group hang outs..everyone else had already gone home and all of a sudden i hear jayde squeel and jump up and bear hug this tall bulky looking guy with longgg curly hair, he was wearing black cargoes and a black shirt and had a bunch of necklaces and bracelets/cuffs. He hugged me hello. It was officially the best hug I had ever received in my entire life. No one has ever been able to top him <3 He was so funny and quirky..and warm =] I instantly had a crush on him..lol
He left after 5 minutes and jayde took one of his cuffs and he walked away b4 realising haha..he then came back =] and i got another hug <3
Being an obsessive teenager at the time (not much has changed) i stalked his myspace..haha as u do..and was totally excited when I saw him at a party the week after =]
It was sarah's 16th birthday party..maybe 17th..mexican themed haha...it was a good night =] The crush only got worse...we spent the whole night talking and playing..haha..he spun me around and tickled me for ages while playing that famous suspense song from horror movies haha...so much fun..lol that was the night adam plimmer and...joel? or mikel? maybe all three had a throwing up competition haha...oh and the bear wrestling..lol i had footage of that on my phone for ages =]
A couple of weeks later I joined scouts because matty told me to come along. and to my joy, when I went to my 2nd meeting (halloween) ALEX was there <3 haha again, it was a great night..so much fun.
We were never consistently close, but whenever we got together it was like we had known each other all our lives =] he was brilliant..and the love that exuded from him was so warm and genuine. Then there was jaydes 17th, my crush "from afar" just kept growing haha..adam and alex played a song for her and I melted inside. We spent a large chunk of that party sitting on her driveway tripping out over this LED light contraption haha =]
He had so many talents, then over the years I saw his artwork which just continued to improve over time =] I always looked up to him, he would send me poems and lyrics and show me animations he made, I still love the most recent one that he sent me, the one he worked on for ages, His take on Batmans husky voice haha...he was always so funny. and creative
There was also louises 18th, he really got me that night. I couldn't focus on anyone but him =] he made that party for me. I have so many msn conversations saved =] he was hilarious
txt:
me: Mr Meowington demands fish!
him: Mr Fish demands meowington!!!
lol that made me laugh so hard when i first read it =]
eating cheesels with mikel and alex out of my top LOL at matts farewell <3
watching black books over a bottle of vodka, moonshine and a 6 pack of beer <3
listening to tim minchin together
having my girliest *sqee* and run ever at Dragonforce just because I saw him from across the road
hoping he would be at scouts
spending hours talking about nothing on msn
oh and I almost forgot. adams 18th at the scout hall. when Stages of Infection played <3 seriously one of THE most fun gigs Ive ever been to. Having all your friends rock out and mosh to even more friends was one of the most amazing experiences. at least 30 of us going nuts while watching alex and his band play. too good.
He was brilliant, I was never really close friends with his mates, but im sort of glad. all of our moments were just between us, with no one else to taint them. He showed me a type of love and affection no one else has been able to show me and for that I truly thank him...
Its sad we were never consistent..he was truly brilliant. It really saddens me to think that I will never be able to have one of those moments again, but Im glad he's passed, he spent his last months living in fear and getting depressed, even if he had recovered he wouldn't of lasted much longer =[
I send all my love to his family and closest friends, especially adam for being with him every step of the way.
Im sorry alex, for everything I didnt do.
pretty sloshed at matts farewell haha =]
he was a good guy
rip Alexander Lawrence Burke 29/1/88 - 27/2/10
xx
Andy
& Kitty goes MeOw.
Friday, February 26, 2010
2:17 PM
gah just had the worst pasta..mum left it in the water after it finished boiling. EW. and then she blamed me because she said she had to go pick me up =.= She can never take responsibility of her own faults =.= It would have taken less than a minute to drain them..but watever I cant say anything to her or she'll eat my head off, so I just stay quiet about her idiotic behaviour. (her not owning up..not the pasta ruining..who cares about that)
anyway =]
hehe I like us:
Tim: Heys what happened to make your night awesome? You found a unicorn with magic candy or beans that lead you to a kingdom? o awesome, did anything you wished for come true?
Audrey: No, u didn't show up =.= I realised it was actually a pony with a crow bar impaled into its head. The pain made it delirious and it thought it was a unicorn. retard =.=
ARGH im so annoyed, Mum just called to say Alex (colombian) is coming over to paint they study. I dislike him. and i want to sleep, not help paint or give him food and be a good Host =.= grrrr
anyway so hot damn...err think i covered it all. It was kinda unnerving running into a lot of familiar faces there...I dont know if thats such a good thing lol
I woke up with
this in my head. ehehe its such a fun song, really went off last night =] reminded me of stefalala who showed me the song months and months ago ^.^ lol is it wierd that I find the mimes kinda hot..LOL as long as they have the facepaint ^.^ otherwise NO DEAL
anddd only other thing that happened was some ugly gross feral tried to pick up kate and she said no and he kept hassling her and since i was dancing with her i blocked him out and he slapped my arm =.= and left and then tried to drag me away but i got him to let go and kept dancing. fuck wit. and THEN he comes up from behind kate and slaps her ass and runs off. fucking coward. so i put her in the middle of me and kurt n kept dancing. and he motherfucking PUNCHED me in the arm douchebag. hurt too =.= fucking desperatecunt
ehh oh wells =] i was trying to do a good deed. lol
kay well I have to go hunting for stefalalas blog and watch the rest of the first ep of skins which i didn't get to finish yesterday and zehn sleep b4 alex comes.
ohoh btw Im up to stage 6 on Uncharted ^.^ hehe thanks to tims creepy memory of all the levels despite not being here or playing it in ages lol. and omg its starting to do that thing where it seeps into my real life. We were sitting upstairs in hungry jacks looking down at the people. I had the urge to start shooting people on the street, good vantage point. LOL...it sorta looked like the level im on now..except less destroyed and dirty haha
anywho
im off
OH yer doddgy phone pics from last night since i didn't have pocket room for my camera:
Noise on a stage. playing in the audience does NOT make u kooler, just makes u hit us with ur spaz attacks u seem to think is dancing.
PARLEZ VOUS FRANCAIS?& Kitty goes MeOw.
12:37 PM
Rofl kurt just rambled in his sleep about knowing that im blogging from the intensity of my eyes like a trapped animal trying to blog hahah
grrr his space bar is dodgy its slowing me down =.=
So im here BECAUSE we went to hotdamn last night =] first time in about 7 months CRAZY there was a time we went every week i think my longest streak was 5 weeks lol WHERE did that money come from =S I almost didnt go tonight since i didnt have enough cash but kurt kindly payed for my entry <3
lol hes watching figureskating...i havent seen anything of the winter olympics. I dont like watching sport BORING
anywho
Last night was odd, b4 midnight me kurt had pretty much decided it was the last time we would ever go but it got reallly fun towards the end. IM HUNGRY but i dont wanna say anything lol. SOOO hmm sum up? got there WAY early never been there that early probably contributed to the shitness. we were told its gotten hard to get in lately..so ehh. we were in the oddly empty band space chatting with ryan n vb and then went upstairs because the bands interpretation of music sounded more like a cat being skinned alive while attempting to play the electric guitar. Upstairs was dead, music was foreign =[ I felt out of touch..but to b honest, thats probably a good thing, the side fridnges, teased hair and identical tats were making me cringe for ever thinking they looked good. Went for a walk with kurt, went back in, went for another walk, met up with kate, then me kurt lahood and heaps others werent let back in which waskinda annoying since we payed...they reached capacity =.=
*mummies of the way*
so me n kurt hung out in hungry jacks till they let people back in, then it slowly get better, as the crowd thinned the music got fun to dance to ^.^ and we were with harb which is always fun ^.^ n his crew
left around 4.30 went maccas got to kurts around 7.30 lol
ill post pics and more when i get homes
xx
Andy
& Kitty goes MeOw.
Thursday, February 25, 2010
12:18 AM
Hola chicos
XD
not much to blog about, didnt do anything yesterday or today other than clean and continue to fix up this stupid house. I think i finally chose the colours for my bedroom ^.^
a dirty fuschia and LIME green tehehe ... still havent completely decided. Im assuming most people don't like this combination...i do XD its very bright and BAM..WAKE UP ish =]
Im on the hunt for a ceiling lamp though. And possibly a carpet thingo...u know apart from new furniture and a bed but that will probably come last lol
I came back from visiting tim not too long ago. He had surgery today to get his wisdom teeth removed...pooooor baby lol. but u know =] Im waiting for the unbearable pain to kick in ^.^ lol..hes still drugged from the hospital. Beh that will be me one day. Oh and watched the end of Figh Club, what a good movie. Totally not what i expected ( i thought it was more of a rocky/godfather type movie since people always seem to lump them together :S) Havent watched something good in awhile =]
Okay well I have nothing to say. so im out. Just 3 more episodes of House and Im caught up in all my shows and I can start watching Skins XD and then Loving Annabell and the other movies kurt gave me mmmmm <3
xx
Andy
& Kitty goes MeOw.
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
12:50 AM
Harro =]
^.^ I didnt get a chance to blog after dancing and I probably should have since I had time and it feels like a milion things have happened since then
After I finished that post yesterday I got ready and walked to the bus which is a 30min walk and i was half way there when I see my dog runn past me =.= this = BAD my dog is not trained..at all, and we're new to the neighbourhood...gah very stressful. i called my mum, i didnt know what to do..we were too far from home to go get the lesh. I was too scared that if i stopped following I would loose him and he would get lost and never come back =.= so i followed and eventually he started heading back. but not without going into a bunch of my neighbours bakyards including a good 5minutes in a house maybe 2 down from mine. god that was shit...this whole viet family was in their backyard screaming and running into the house to hide and the father is yelling at me repeating he was going to call the cops over and over again while im trying to get Bobby to stop chasing their rabbit and maddly running around the backyard. For those of u who dont know me I DONT RUN =.= it was bloody hot too...oh and my dogs a german shephard..completely harmless..to humans at least but u know...most people find them intimidating...anyway eventually he got bored and i had to chase him into another backyard =.=
By the end of all that I had missed the bus so I asked michelle if she could pick me up on the way to dancing. We were like 40mins late haha but it was okay I dont think we missed much. It was really good, I sweat heaps haha..we have a performance in a MONTH...eep but good stuf =] one of the girls offered me and michelle a chance to dance on a float at mardi gras so we snapped it up XD hopefully it all turns out coz she needs to double check with the coordinator.
Its wolf/latin themed lol So think Shakira She wolf =] colour theme is red and yellow...geh which means id need to buy something so they better get back to us soon.
Kurt and I didnt end up going to Fair Day or The Bank coz he was too sick and we both would rather save up for thursday at hot damn for lahoods ^.^ so instead mum picked him up around 11pm and he stayed the night. To sum up our night: hiding behind feathers, playing taboo, snack packs, abba singstar, ZUMBA and house =]
eeeeeeheheh I LOVE ZUMBA omg best at home workout thingo EVER. once im done with this blog im going to go do it again. its soooo much fun plus u actually learn the steps eehehe XD Seriously by the end of it i was literally dripping in sweat, quite gross really =] it was pooling in my colar bones ahahaha
OHH let me gross u out some more:
heeeee =]
oh and i forgot i have one more pic LOL of the hideous skirts we have to practice the dances in..but lol its MICHELLE <3
hehe
As for today, i woke up b4 kurt n played uncharted 2 until my butt went numb and then got pins and needles LOL..so HA! Tim cant say im not trying =] but its geting better lol i got all excited when i finally figured out in which order to knock out the guards without being seen XD
When kurt left around 3 i had a good nap and then went with mumsy to get petrol. Then was visited by mikey who came bearing pasta but when she got there i served myself some and tim n uly came to get me so i wolfed it down n left. We went to ryans to pick up something for uly (ryan lives right near dancing ^.^) and then dropped uly of home n watched most of Fight club back at tims. It was a nice arvo =] But i reallllly liked fightclub, i want to finish it soooon. its not the same wathing a movie in two parts =[ oh wells..it better have a good ending!
anyway gosh its hot..
time to see if mum will let me use the computer in my room so i can ZUMBA XD
xx
Andy
& Kitty goes MeOw.
Sunday, February 21, 2010
10:32 AM
& Kitty goes MeOw.
Saturday, February 20, 2010
4:28 AM
Harro
^.^
im hungryyy but theres nothing to eat ={ so ill just drink water instead and go to bed soon so i cant think about it LOL
anyway XD just came back from hellfire =]
it was really good...i think possibly the best one ive had so far not that the others have been shit...just more friendly faces around this time i guess
^.^
went to le bar ontop of hungry jacks on george street 4 pre drinks 4 ages coz we iz da cheap like that. $3 drinks XD very hot and stuffy though =[ but we met rowan there and his buddy for the night DOMNIC =] le french boy ..kinda shitty that he could barely speak english and it was too loud to be slowly shouting at him..so yer he pretty much got ignored most of the night..BUT WE TRIED...
and then mystery man that I dubbed Paul with "hot" asian chicka and 3rd tim + his lady friend in the lovely underbust corset
in hellfire we met up with other tim or white tim as hes often referred to..and a few others they knew..was good got to watch all three shows perfect timing XD
theres something beautiful about being about 3 meters away from a stunning naked woman whos tied up and spinning from the ceiling =] they had an awesome backing song too hopefully i can find one day ^.^ and there was the spastic with the ukulele whos playing at the opera house..seriously wtf and then (appricot) there was the male pole dancer..who was good n watever but a shitty pole dancer..not very sensual..it was more like..hey look at me i can hang upside down from a pole. BIG WHOOP so can all the guys at parkour
watched people in the play area for awhile ^.^ and danced and funn =]
and yeh. saddly no pics..theyve got a no pics policy..which is a shame, some of the outfits are awesomeeee and for some reason the poster person for hellfire is always GROSS they choose the ugliesssst people to put on it i swear theres so many hotter people there.
and a more interesting nightrider home coz tim usally just falls asleep lol but we ran into azn ryan and white tim was with us to and buddah so yer kept entertained
FUCK im hungryyy
i gave in im eating a banana =.=
n talking to kurt on skype
so hungryyy
need carbs grrrr
after dis banono is off to sleep lands
meow
xx
Andy
& Kitty goes MeOw.
Thursday, February 18, 2010
10:59 PM
I should be sleeping since i got maybe an hour of sleep this morning..but ehh watevs I wanna blog and zehn sleep
^.^
Stefalala drove me and matt to macquarie centre ice rink and we had lunch, roamed around n then ice skated =]
They were great, good teachers too, very patient ^.^ and by the end of it i was SLIGHLTY faster than a snail wewt
was fun..except stefs mystery ankle fracture pain :S
loud tribe! got canceled so me n tim went and watched Shutter Island....WOW what a disappointment. that'll teach me to want to see things -.- so cliched and predictable...and ehh
whatever and zehn we had nandos
and played at time zone for abit
and NOW im homeee
was a good day =]
im tiered i guess..but I still have energy left the only time i was getting really drowsy was coming out of borders with stef and matt WAY too mellow
=]
so ja ^.^
just a recount im too drained for opinions about much
hellfire tomorrow XD
AND SLEEP <3
i wanna go out and catch up with friends and stuf but i also feel like taking day off. i want to just chill out and catch up on my shows, sleeeeep and read something ^.^ just do nothing for a day and not coz mum wants me home...oh yeah and have the house to myself while im doing all this ^.^ i cant relax when mummys home
anywho
tata
xx
Andy
& Kitty goes MeOw.
6:58 AM
DRAT
i cant find the sunrise song :(
oh how lovely
I can see the sunrise perfectly from my room XD
BUT thats not the point -.- I WANT TO HEAR THAT SONG the classical song in all the oldschool cartoons whenever the rooster woke up
SHIT YES i found
itENJOY LOVELIES...they could have done a better job of the clip jeez...theres better looking sunrises around ANYWHO
the one coming in from outside is pretty damn DANDY
mmm makes me happy XD
okay so im also BUZZED from not sleeping last night..its not really an all nighter seeing as Ill go to bed once I wake up mumsy. She had an assignemtn due today and lol she didnt tell me till the night b4 it was due and ive obviously taught her well coz she procrastinated till the very last minute untill she just obviously wasnt making sense so I put her to sleep and finished it for her =]
lol..shes doing a management course HA!
goodluck with thattt
anyway
ill possibly get two hours sleep or less n then have to get ready to go ice skating with stefalala and matt XD
GAH i havent seen him for over a year..the sad thing is hes been in aus for almost a month now and i still havent seen him..lol WHOOPS
anywho
=]
SEE im not thatttt obsessed with blogging. I was too tiered to blog tuesday night when I came back from quans bday drinks in le city and yesterday was..preoccupied doing..I DONT KNOW
sooo mini recap: Tuesday
tim picked me up and took me to work with him so i wouldnt have to get the bus ^.^ his driving is realllly convinient XD and omg his MUM gave me my first EVER red envelope *weee the suns getting perdyer <3* and I was pretty touched..haha..I know its meant to b goodluck..or iunno badluck if u dont give them out bleh watevs BUT i still felt special haha..lol..i kinda teared up lolers..
sooo we went to star bar and drank and ate and were merry =]
it was wierd like his WHOLE uni class showed up..like wtf..im not friends wif anyone at uni lol...dont like em much really..wouldnt willingly hang out with them if it wasnt uni related. and even then...anyWHO..just wierd. but i guess alot of people have that..its nice i guess. Like michelle went away with all these uni people..which is pretty awesome..i mean..theyve only known each other a year and are going away together. or ellie/jamie/daniels hot damn group..thats freekin wicked that theyre all such good mates
lol..my group from highschool has been together for like what 5 years and we still hardly hang out
ehh watevs...its not like i wanna hang out wif uni people..it would just b nice if i liked them enough to want to do that sorta thing.
andddd we had a fun train ride home XD
PICA TIME:
tehehee
zehs wednesday =]
did nothing much really..plans with joel/mikel/kurt failed...I got my new glasses..or well ordered them. TUNRS OUT my eyesights better! or the last lady fucked it up big time...6 levels stronger than they needed to be =.= which could have fucked my eyesight even more buttt i felt okay with the glasses im supposed to have..lol the opometrist was so excited. haha first time in his career that he gets to tell a teen their eyesight improved lol
andddd FINALLY finished the study =] and got rid of more boxes in le garage. and tim came over unannouced after he finished rockclimbing =] which was LOVERly he installed my ps3 XD and then we went bak to his n he lent me 3 games ^.^
watched Bolt...it was sweet. its amazing how easily disney can make me cry BUT really the whole time that movie had me on edge lol..intense emotions completely captivated haha..and i hate to say it..but i dont know how comfortable I would be letting my child watch that. the intro had people dying all over the place tisktisk disney TISK TISK...and senseless killing too..like no blood..no faces..no consequences no emotional ties whatsoever..SHAMEFULL
I watched a documentary once on the standards movie are rated on in Europe vs American/Australia and it was really interesting. They made some fascinating arguments. Their big thing was European ratings are much more lax with sexually explicit stuf and harsher with violence ratings whereas America was all the reverse. Europeans argument was that sex and sexuality are a natural part of life... i quite liked that way of thinking, whereas violence should be the negative thing here...they're very particular with the way violence is portrayed. they less realistic the violence is, the higher the rating because they feel that younger audiences need to see the blood and the pain and the guts to fully grasp that violence has real consequences. I like it =]
but yis i was a little dissapointed with the fact that im prettty sure im going to be one of those crazy over protective mothers who wont let their kids watch the teletubbies coz their english is fucked up..or pokemon because its little kids roaming around fighting =.=
lol EVERYTHING WILL BE PRESCREENED pre read pre-chucked out and replaced with a preservative free alternative LOL
anywho
=]
i wanna keeep rantingggg but i have nothing
i feel like watching a war doco...DAMN VHS...in mummys room where shes sounnnnd asleep
BUT yis XD
im excited
SECRETS OF WAR: ww2
haha
AND THEN!
Executions rated R for real footage ..LOL yes after my rant on violence..
but hey im not 5 years old and wanting a pet dog with infra red eyes
tata for nowwwww
lubCHU
xx
Andy
& Kitty goes MeOw.
Tuesday, February 16, 2010
11:59 AM
=[
I don't know how comfortable I am with posting this here...this is generally something I would post on my private blog but in a small attempt to open up...I'll write it here. I guess its no biggie...we all struggle with certain things...it shouldn't be so shameful.
geh..uhm, Im really upset right now. I feel like shit...I kinda just wanna hide under a rock..pretty much forever =[ Im really insecure and Im sure thats obvious to everyone but I have my good days and then my bad...but recently its just been bad. Ive felt really horrible and ugly and disgusting and just gross. Its been getting worse too coz I hate how I dress...this might sound ridiculous to anyone reading this, pretty self-inflicted right? But to a degree, its not =[ Apart from not being able to choose nice things..i think :S...I wouldn't really know. Is that its hard to find anything decent when nothing fits right and Im picky as hell. My options are limited and ugly as it is. Apart from this...I don't think Ive ever in my entire life bought any piece of clothing for myself (without someone approving it first)..Its always been my mum, the rare times I try and put some input into what I'm wearing I'm shot down and told i look hideous so..errr Ive given up trying. =[
As for this moment in particular... Im stressed out coz I don't know what to wear tonight. And I know for a lot of people that would be like...wtf take a chill pill. But its not that easy. I don't like the idea that people will either dismiss me altogether coz of what Im wearing or will form a negative opinion about me in their minds. Plus I just seem to be getting negative comments about my attire a lot latly and its just always in my mind now ={ like R telling me I dress like an old lady, or N saying I look like a catholic school girl or Tim just in general disapproving of what I wear. I KNOW MY CLOTHES IS SHIT...theres just nothing I can do about that at the moment =[
Knowing that tim hates what I wear especially gets to me..he's my boyfriend ={ I don't want him to be embarrassed to be seen with me...I want him to be proud..and I know this might sound mean on his part, but really he's not..he's just being honest and too many people are afraid to do that, and I really do dress like crap.
=[
So basically I just feel horrid. I really want to give tonight a miss...like I did yesterday. and yes, my main reason for not going was not knowing what to wear. Its retarded I know, these people know me already, they don't care what I wear...but i still feel self conscious.
This paranoia has really reached messed up levels in the past..i mean yesterday and today are fine examples. Year 12 formal, jessicas 18th (you have no idea how much this fucked me over) and random partys. But not liking how I look or how I dress makes me incredibly insecure...there was a whole month in 2008 that I felt so ugly and shit about myself I literally did not leave the house except for school...and there was some days I couldn't handle going to school either...
I know its retarded...its just, a big deal to me =[ every shopping trip ends in tears...and I try to hide it from my friends coz they all love shopping and have never really understood why i don't like it. Ive lied to everyone for years saying I find it incredibly boring. But that's not true...its just a constant and painful reminded of how much I hate the way I look.
beh..i suppose this is the part I try and calm myself down by saying NO ONE GIVES A FUCK and wont be looking twice anyway...the world doesn't revolve around me and I'm the only one who cares..people worth talking to shouldn't care what I look like..or how I dress....
=[
well...that's my story for today
xx
andy.
& Kitty goes MeOw.
12:44 AM
Morning Daffodils
hope your well ^.^
I didnt leave the house today XD
it was great, I havent had a good sleep in since like...last year! which is really odd since I had them pretty regularly in le past..ehh anyway. it even seemed to cure my cold ^.^
I feel refreshed..except that now my eyes are working too hard to use this screen GAH need new glasses :( i lost them about 3 weeks ago on the train i think.
So i was meant to go to Kianies surprise farewell lunch at some jap restaurant on george street...I wasn't too keen considering the last time i went to "some jap restaurant" in the city it was a shithouse experience, we split the bill amongst the group and basically all the asians stuffed themselves while everyone else was like..eww wtf is this ate 2 grains of rice and had to pay about $20 =.=
WAGAYA sucks balls!
anywho, It would have been nice to go and say goodbye to the lovely Kianie (shes going to teach engrish in china for 6 months ^.^) but..it was hot..lol and I had nothing to wearrrr...and mommmmy was getting pissed off at me for going out non-stop. So i decided to just stay home. We actually did get most of the study room done and unpacked a couple more boxes ^.^
we baddly need to paint the bird poop/cockroack splatter wall it looks gross. We've chosen a pale lime green..if that makes sense =]
I still can't decide what colour to do my room...suggestions? Im thinking a dark but warm shade of purple as a feature wall and maybe... GAH im not good at colours!
or the feature wall could be a bloody red...but i dont want the other walls to be that shitty cream/vanilla colour it is at the moment.
Im also excited to fix up the garage coz once thats done we can have a house warming/birthday/welcoming home parties lol but there is SO much to do there...expensiveness too :( we need to..or I want to, gyproc the walls coz at the moment its just the outside and the wood frames + paint the gyproc, make a room in the corner and make the toilet into a more..toilety looking place. Plus get some old couches or something and put it in there so we can sit...and not let Bobby sit on them so they STINK like the last ones haha
Now all that seems doable..not so easy is cementing the grass up till about the clothes line...i dont like having that much grass and so close to the house..plus that way people can sit under light while in the backyard at night n not freak out coz of all the bugs hiding in the lawn. I have NOOO idea how much that would cost either..*sigh*
oh and install the aircons GOD this house is hot and humid. + fix lights, take out the beam light thingo in my room and put in an indoorsy one, add more *i looked this up on google for 5 minutes b4 finding it* wall sockets AHAHA
wiki says theyre FEMALE..that made me laugh...=( u had to be there..
anyway YES more wall sockets in the appropriate places, this house is fucked theres hardly any sockets. Put in curtains, finish the study, get a new stove, buy a digital tv (not that we even watch tv), get a new bedroom set for my room, find me a nice lamp and a carpet/matt thing, wash the outside of the house and while ur at it
buy me a car...
get my p's
get a job
... probably not in that order,
beh
butttt I really do need that job..so i can save up and pay for driving lessons seeing as mumsy will NEVER take me =.= shes actually changed her mind from being too busy to take me to actually refusing until i get actual lessons =.=
so once i have money + can drive = more freedom ^.^....der
but its not like I dont already have a lot of freedom..i just feel increadibly bad asking for money all the time and shes (mother) over giving me lifts...and i feel bad every time stef drives me somewhere ..and tim now too *sigh* plus i feel guilty since im never deso driver..i wanna give other people a break, its slack. Plus not having as much money and feeling guilty has resulted in me going to a lot less gigs =.= not happy...see b4 i was going to more shows BUT its not like i was OMFG I NEED TO GO...so now, since i know im not obsessed with these bands, ive decided just not to go. But that = no gigs, since im not obsessed with any music/bands which is a little sad in itself.
For instance: I would like to go to Imogen Heap BUT i wont die if i dont go and im not that bothered
oh yer! thats another thing. Most people dont like the bands I want to see enough to waste $50+ seeing them. Ive gone to a couple gigs alone and Im fine with that..but i feel even less motivated to go knowing that there isnt good company, and now looking back on the shows i did go to alone..I probably wouldnt bother now..GOD IM LAZY. I always thought, yer! i want a job so that when i buy tickets to shows n stuf i can pay for someone and drag them along with me....but u know what. Im not that generous LOL andddd again, not worth it.
Bahh someone please find me something to get truly excited about =.= I havent felt properly excited in the LONGEST time. its really quite shit. everything is pretty meh. I hate that feeling...but lol..u know, I dont care enough to do something about it. ITS A VISCIOUS CYCLE I TELLS YA
lol i think ive finally run out of things to say ^.^
btw this is what most of my private blogs are like..lol a realllly long rant about nothing =] just what floats in my head =]
OH YER
lol
kurt!
I read his blog todaysh and I felt really bad coz i hadnt since thursday and I had missed an important post on sunday which was partly about me ={
"I’m scared I’m losing people. In particular Artiene and Andrea...Andy has been like super busy recently and most of the time it has been with Tim...I think she might be getting bored of me...I can’t help but think she’d rather be somewhere else."
well thats the generall gist of it =[ it made me sadddd and feel guilty. It's true that ever since we went to jb me and tim have spent a lot more time together, things are really going well =] and its not long b4 he starts uni again or i start working..and we both get busy and we wont be able to see each other as much so Im taking advantage of this free time period. BUT thats also no excuse for not making more time to see kurt =( and properly. Basically every time since the week after new years that we've hung out Ive been majorly stressed with moving houses, packing/unpacking, doing assessments WHILE he was with me ={, being overly tiered or sick. So I havent been able to enjoy the time weve spent together. SO starting from now I think we're going to need one day a week of just me and him. no distractions no sleepyness. so we can keep this "long distance" friendship alive lol =]
Over the last year Ive gotten closer to kurt than Ive ever b4, its the first time Ive ever felt that depth of connection with anyone ever and we just fit right but this new year has started to tear us apart ={ time to put the effort in and mend it ^.^
okay NOW i think im done...
OH lol..no im not XD
im sure by now anyone who had started to read this gave up a longgg time ago ^.^
CAMPING. lol well kurt never booked the cabin we were gona stay in coz i wasnt gona go due to the job thing. I thought the whole thing was off really till today when everyone started talking about it again. We momentarily decided to go bak to camping which made me more keen again coz im not bothered baying over $60=$80 to share a single room with 5 people and eat shittily when I spent $130 for a huge 2 story house with plenty of room, privacy, close to the beach + alko petrol and ate like a king (better than i do at home really). Just didnt seem good value..plus I WANT TO CAMP. buttt then kurt pulled out, which means it would just be me mikel and jolia..which would just b shithouse really. Jolia will be PDA-ing the whole time and me and mikel will have to entertain ourselves and he hates me most of the time so its gona b lame. Plus i cant really b bothered getting wasted for 3 days in a row at this point in time. So then mikel decided to volunteer my place again =.= he tends to do that alot =.= which is annoying considering he treats me like crap unless hes increadibly inebriated. Plus as much as i LOVE having joel and mikel around, theyre heaps of fun. I hate cleaning up after them and feeding them. Mums fine with them coming over, but FUCK they make soooo much mess. If they dont break something they spill something and if they dont do that they stain my couch or light my garage on fire =.= Then theres the feeding *sigh* their teenage boy appetites never seemed to go away as they got older and it gets 10x worse when they're not sober LOL
Like I said, i love them. but wayyy too much to handle over 3 days. that will NOT be a holiday for me. I feel like a maid and chef (two things i dont excel at anyway) and cant chill out properly. one night here and there. okay. but definatly not for three days.
so iunno...theres sorta a road block happening at the moment with that.
Im not too fussed. I dont care either way. if they organise it ill go..but yer its gona b awkward without kurt and theyve basically got a day to book somewhere lol
okay NOW im done
=]
lol...hmm i should sleep...but i think im gona catch up on a show ^.^
TATA
xx
Andy
& Kitty goes MeOw.
Sunday, February 14, 2010
11:34 PM
Happy vday YALL
^.^
my headache is finally starting to go awayyyy =] I woke up sicker today and pretty lethargic but ehhh watevs.
Soooo todaII tim came over to come get me around 4pm and lol...i felt like being sappy so =] I got him to watch the intro to
dylan morans newest stand up (we both bonded over dylan that night at hot damn lol)
Transcript:
i dunno..you know...you come in..wanting stuff..I dont know.. what you want, I dont know what anybody wants, I dont know what I want...yeahhh, you say that, I get that,you know, wheres the cake. Cake is the language of love, I don't see any cakes in the building. You know people say that to you in your life. They go I love you. I love you. Yeah? Gimmie a fucking ecclair.
=]
SO I DID GET HIM A FUCKING ECCLAIR lol...i don't care that he doesn't have much of a sweet tooth =] but I thought he would get it ^.^ Plus its better than randomly giving him flora and some chocolate that doesn't particularly mean anything other than HERE have this dead flower.
=]
So yis, then we went to alberts, I was feeling pretty sick but we soldiered on ^.^ Got a nice little group happening and me and tim taught them how to play mafia and then Kings cup...which I ended up having to drink..ick but it wasn't too bad (coca cola watermelon and chili sauce). Then they played zombie and kicked a couple of street lights till they turned off ^.^
TAW albert had the cutessssssst little beagle
XD chehhh
Then me tim david and robert went to visit nat while she worked, then later dropped rob home =]
Cutesy day, pretty fun actually ^.^
and now, time to SLEEP geh..gtg lunch in le city tomorrow =]
chao
xx
Andy
& Kitty goes MeOw.
1:49 AM
GEH! its been bugging me all day since i didnt get to finish blogging earlier. and i dont want things to accumulate. I got back from Tarins 21st like 40mins ago..lol im such a tard, i was sitting around waiting for mumsy to finish using the computer and then realised we have another one =.=
SO back to recounting. Friday: walked to Kev's in the rain and then sorta sat under it (holey tarp) but it was k...except fro Dr FeelUp who wouldn't shut up but I guess it would have been boring otherwise.
picas:
the lovely sapari
Dr FeelUp + kurtyy
so the shindig was alright, very...fairfield lol goon bags, dutch ovens and walks by the creek
This was also the first time I identified as bi...I don't know how I feel about that. I was asked if i was straight and I was kind of stumped and ended up saying bi...Ive never had a girlfriend but I am open to the possibility and girls do turn me on and I have hooked up with chicks a couple of times...but it really hasnt meant anything. kissing is kissing, it doesnt mean anything to me wether its a boy or a girl unless u epicly disgust me or its just wierd coz ur like my brother/sister. so iunno...ehh I guess it doesnt matter, Im with Tim and Im happy so meh =]
Saturday:
Went to livo westfields with mumsy and got Tarin a hand bag and mumsy got kurt some vday stuf <3 and bleh..rahrahrah taxi to kurts, got changed, watched people stress out. tarin looked beautiful. party was lovely (paris themed, lots of great costumes). they hired out a functions room in smity n zehn mumsy picked me up from kurts.
pika..CHU
=]
only thing that bothered me a bit was one of kurts awesome and HOT aunty type people wouldnt let me be haha...she was all 'u used to be fun' 'y r u being so shy' and basically wanting me to be a skank on the dancefloor...which i would have done had I been able to move my hips or feet properly lol...but u know..im pretty sure she wouldn't have been happy even if i wasnt restricted at the time. It made me feel kinda shitty about myself...but..geh I like sitting on the sidelines. and Having kurt around is more than enough of a big personality for everyone to enjoy. Plus he takes off a lot of the pressure in social situations...like when someone tries to talk to me and im not bothered and have nothing of interest to say...direct them to kurt and theyre happy =]
*sigh*
I know I shouldn't use kurt as a crutch..but...geh Im fine where I am for now and if I want to go out and play then I will...otherwise LEAVE ME ALONE and let me enjoy my surroundings.
..lol interesting, probabaly the two most important people in my life right now are tim and kurt..both have very loud personalities...i find it odd that they put up with me considering theyre always out looking for the next fun thing to do to make a splash. haha..i think theyre both going to kill me for comparing them to each other :P
iunno i feel like i should say something about breaking out of my shell blahfuckingblah its not my fault new people are always boring or not worth my time =.= (not to be bitchy or anything haha...im still "nice" but after a polite hello i really have nothing left to say to you, i can quiz you for awhile about how u know so and so and say u have a nice outfit...wat r u studying..ohhh so whats ur band called but really I DONT CARE ur answers r usually mediocre and boring) I just cant be bothered making an effort most of the time...wow im so lazy geh...theres so much wrong with this line of thinking...oh well thats more for my private blog
bahBUYS
happy chinese new year peoples
xx
Andy.
& Kitty goes MeOw.
Saturday, February 13, 2010
11:46 AM
Morning bumblebees =]
I reallllly wanted to blog last night but I was so dead and I don't have much time now, my minds kinda bogged down at the moment with a few things but Ill explain that when I have more time.
SO yesterday: Went with mumsy to work and filled in the paperwork to apply at canley gardens so hopefully they get back to me soon. Then met Tim at his work n we picked up his lil sis went back to work then he dropped me off at kurts <3 We spent agesss at his place instead of going to the party lol but I prefer it that way. I hate going to parties too early where people are still sober theyre never as friendly haha.
Had some home made vodka slurpies XD
bah i have to go
m,ore to say but i need to go buy tarins present and then going straight to their place for her 21st tonight
blog tomorrow i suppose
& Kitty goes MeOw.
Friday, February 12, 2010
12:13 AM
Bonjour mes amis
again I'm pushing myself to get this done I'm mega tiered. I had a nap at tims and woke up even more sore from rock climbing than this morning..why is that S: it usually happens..u know being more sore the 2nd sleep after something strenuous..heh anyway!
We had a little group outing today to say goodbye to Mr Clinton who's flying out tomorrow..or well I suppose today now since its past midnight. So me Tim stef aly ika doro Aaron and Clinton went to bowling and lazer tag and then we all went back to ikas place to hang out (except aly). It was nice =] stefalala won bowling (i lost lol) and she also won in laser tag, which would have been more fun with a bigger group but ehh anyway.
stefs been too kind and driving me around lately. She picked me and tim up and left ikas early just to drop us off at Loud Tribe! <3 need to repay her somehow.
Pika ture time:
lol..aly didn't make it
=]
I'm so epicly broke now geh..and I still haven't even bought anything for Tarin's 21st...or really sorted out my costume. its Paris themed XD and i have something but it's going to b similar to the birthday girl and I feel bad..its like wearing white to a wedding lol.
Kurtys been awesome and organised camping more BUT zer is a problem :( its changed to cabins for one....which is more expensive..and err I didn't want to spend too much on this trip...and the whole appeal was to sleep outside on the floor ehh watevs. Apart from that...I need to do my resume tonight and go tomorrow and if they ask me to stay/work next week I can't exactly ask them for days off my first week while I'm being trained...*sigh* I really want to spend time with them..but I need this job :( and I really shouldn't post pone it another week..I mean...how often do u get the manager nagging you to come in and apply.
beh =[
On another note, there are so many shows to watch XD and I haven't caught up yet. Im mostly interested in watching Skins season 4 but I haven;t set aside the time to watch it. I need tobe in the right frame of mind and Ive been too busy and guilt ridden and only been able to watch short shows like cougar town or big bang theory.
Also...internet=bad gah. Im somewhat addicted. I can spend hours not really doing anything when I could be doing something productive like READING god. Its been so long since I read a novel :( I used to be big on reading...before the internet invaded my life. Its even taken away from me listening to music..kind of ironic when you think about it considering I download all my music so if it wasn't for the internet I wouldn't have any *sigh* Its not like I reallly need it, I was fine while I was moving between houses, I actually appreciated it, I got to listen to music properly like I used to and focus on what I was hearing rather than having it like whitenoise while I do other things.
ehh oh well I'll have to fix that.
anyway time for bed
xx.
& Kitty goes MeOw.
Wednesday, February 10, 2010
10:52 PM
KooKoo Ka Chu
mmm I'm in the mood to listen to
I am the Walrus...mmmm loverly =]
I'm really tiered at the moment but I'm going to do this regardless...I don't think I'll be blogging every day..and I wasn't really intending on making it so..recount-ish but ehh that's what's happening so far plus today was a little different.
Tim's been nagging me to go rock climbing with him for ages..its his new thing for now lol and seeing as he's monkeyman I've just always assumed he's been good which intimidates me even more. But the point is I caved and went...I don't know why lol I put up a good fight for at least 2 months haha but I took stefalala along with me for support <3 plus she's more active than me and likes trying different things more than me haha.
Since I hadn't seen Kurty in over a WEEK *cries* we went to his place and hung out for a bit at his place b4 rockclimbing.
We were
chillin out maxing relaxing all kool by the pool and played super mario on wii and taboo XD suchhhh a fun game lol
Zen came rock climbing :( lol kayyyy soooo u may b wondering why that's such a big deal and why i fought against it for so long...or you don't give a damn but I'm gona tell you anyway haha. I don't like doing things I can't do, I've probably gone rock climbing maybe 3 or 4 times b4 this time and I've failed pretty hard and it's embarrassing..lol and then everyone's all positive and trying to cheer you on...and you still fail...and then they either do one of two things. try and make out like they're really shit too when they're obviously not just to try to make me feel better (u just climbed the fucking thing without a harness douche) or they get really frustrated and start yelling a billion instructions and don't understand why you cant do it. I don't like people taking pity on me and I don't like letting people down...its all very confronting for me. Makes me feel like shit. But it means a lot to tim for some reason :S so I went.
so that's why...BUT I'm pretty happy with how today went =] I managed to climb 2 walls almost to the top and did one of the slanted ones so..u know at least it wasn't total fail. But there was also like..two walls where I just couldn't do it and I was starting to get really stressed out...I tried though :( still felt like crap..but I didnt cry! so its all good ^.^ Stef did really well XD and uly and tim are freekin gods compared to me haha...you know what else was really daunting. the bajillion ripped dudes without shirts all climbing geh =.= put a fucking shirt on I don't care if you have abs it wasn't that hot!
lol tim and uly bouldering..they're insane.
anywho =] that was my day
geh neeeeeed to call mikel and joel again about camping next week I really want this to go through.
kay ttyl
xx.
& Kitty goes MeOw.
Tuesday, February 9, 2010
10:06 AM
Goooood morning cool cats ^.^
1st proper entry XD finally! The blog's been open since just after new years but I wanted to sort out the layout first. Im still not too happy with it, there's something missing..hmm
anywho
I feel like I need some sort of introduction to this blog *spinach and cheese empanadas* nomnomnom yummy ^.^ anyway! back to my point...I dont think I have one...ehh...oh yeah, lol get used to my writing because its basically just a stream of what is running through my mind. OKAY FOCUS. I started this blog because I keep getting harassed to show people my other blog...but fuckyouall your not getting it =P SOOOOO as a compromise I'm opening this one. I'm not too sure what will be in it yet other than me rambling on ^.^ It's my specialty. I don't really expect anyone to read this except kurt haha.
KAY so I named my blog after one of my favorite songs by Sigur Rós,
'Hoppípolla'. No i don't know what it means, and I don't want to know. All their music is so beautiful and I'd rather leave the lyrics up for interpretation. I only just watched the video clip today even though I've loved this song for about 5 years now...didn't really want to taint it with the clip BUT it made me
sad.happy so all is good.
AND my url is named after one of my favorite songs by Silvio Rodriquez,
'Imaginate'. (video clip unrelated and shitty) It's such a nice song but there's so much more to it than just what it sounds like and the lyrics. I associate him with my family's past which means so much to me, so much so that I feel guilty for not having lived it with them.
Silvio Rodríguez Domínguez (born November 29, 1946 in San Antonio de los Baños is a Cuban musician, and a leader of the nueva trova movement. He is considered Cuba's best known folk singer and known for his highly eloquent and symbolic lyrics. Many of his songs have become classics in Latin American music, such as Ojalá, Playa Girón, Unicornio and La maza. Rodríguez, musically and politically, is a symbol of the Latin American left wing. Several of his songs praise the revolutionary figure Che Guevara and he is also currently deputy in the Cuban parliament. His lyrics are notably introspective. His songs combine romanticism, love (even eroticism), revolutionary politics, and idealism. He has released nearly 20 albums.
ehh =.= stupid blog, knew I should have written this on word first. it deleted half of my post =.=
So Im going to sum it all up:
I turned 19 the other day, it was a wicked bday, celebrations went over a few days =] started early with kurty and mommmsy and salsa'd the night away at The Establishment and ended up at Stonewall lol then the next day stef took me to lunch and shopping and then had cake at my grans with my aunty, two cousins n mummy, watched them perform thriller for me LOL and then to top it off on my actual bday I went to Jervis Bay with the girls and timmy <3 (plus aaron clinton and jason. Which was loverlllly. my first road trip with them, plus i got to keep tim for 3 nights in a row XD
I cant wait to start salsa lessons with michelle XD hopefully it all goes through coz the instructor is still looking for a place to hold the lessons. and YAY i loveeeeee dancing. Plus dancing salsa, succesfully, with a partner is so rewarding =] WHich is why i love dancing with alex and leo, they're soooo damn good at leading. It makes me feel like I'm actually okay at it haha. Plus leo taught me the basics for
bachata XD
meowwww...
I have the next 4 or 5 months off uni XD sooooo job time! Ive got an AIN (assistant in nursing) position lined up for me at canley vale nursing home so I have to get my resume done by the end of the week and go present myself =] Im a little nervous seeing as Ive only worked 4 days in psycho geriatrics..but ehhh gota learn one way or another. It will be good experience for me and ill ACTUALLY get paid this time XD
OH andddd there's the possibility of going camping next thursday till friday arvo with the awesome 4some which would be fantesticle coz i miss them like fuck and I love camping with them =] BUT seeing as its all up in the air I think I'm going to have to start organising it if I want it to actually happen. weeeeeee
Also planning a house warming seeing as we moved 3 weeks ago-ish..but lol not till the end of March probably. We need to finish unpacking and fumigating and do all those sorta things and settle first. Ill keep you posted.
Pikatura time!
haha kurt gets it <3
Warren is the shiznits definatly need to hang out with him some more =]
and shes the bombdigg
and hes my sexy monkey man mwahahaha he's going to take over the world next tuesday ^.^ oh..shit wait I shouldn't of told you that..don't mind me =]
ehehe our animal series, Im missing tortuga though haha =]
till next time,
xx.
& Kitty goes MeOw.
